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My Dad had a heart attack this past Wednesday. I am so glad he is alive, home, and in good spirits after the past few days.
I am not ready to accept my parents mortality.
For the next few weeks I will be my Dad's driver when my Mom is at work. I am also taking over for Dad with the cleaning of the basement since he is banned from heavy lifting for the rest of his life.
My Dad survived a major heart attack !
He was low risk too.
I am going to stop typing about that because it makes me cry.
Realization that I am very lonely. Someone else being around would be swell except I haven't found anyone [yet] that doesn't seem to look at me with beer eyes or doesn't want some goddamned skinny ass Donna Reed giving blowjobs 21 year old bimbo shinnanigans or doesn't make me ill. Fuck living in a collegiate rural area. I just can't be that type of person.
It isn't in me and it sure as hell isn't me.
Get over the social anxiety and wander around to some new places already kid!
What a difficult mess.
Knowledge in social cues and social norms would be very handy.
I sure as hell hope I will be able to go see Swans at the end of the month.
I am not ready to accept my parents mortality.
For the next few weeks I will be my Dad's driver when my Mom is at work. I am also taking over for Dad with the cleaning of the basement since he is banned from heavy lifting for the rest of his life.
My Dad survived a major heart attack !
He was low risk too.
I am going to stop typing about that because it makes me cry.
Realization that I am very lonely. Someone else being around would be swell except I haven't found anyone [yet] that doesn't seem to look at me with beer eyes or doesn't want some goddamned skinny ass Donna Reed giving blowjobs 21 year old bimbo shinnanigans or doesn't make me ill. Fuck living in a collegiate rural area. I just can't be that type of person.
It isn't in me and it sure as hell isn't me.
Get over the social anxiety and wander around to some new places already kid!
What a difficult mess.
Knowledge in social cues and social norms would be very handy.
I sure as hell hope I will be able to go see Swans at the end of the month.