a drowning
I was at the mall when mami called me pretty serious...jorge curtis was dead. he was two days away from turning 16. george drowned. i taught him in sunday school. i spent that night crying when i really wasn't close to him...i don't know why i cried my eyeballs out: knowing he drowned (terrible death) or that he was so young and now his body was lying in a morgue.
tony was just here. he dropped off some cd's and finnish chocolate and we ended up talking for a while. it went smooth. i couldn't look at him in the face tho when i spoke to him. but i'm glad for him.
the ex called me today. i'm so happy. it was like those convos when you speak to someone when u really don't....you just call to have the person on the other line while you watch tv or go online...with a little talk in between...nothing specific to say...just happy to be on the line w/each other. ::sigh:: am i hopeless? most likely....
but im scared....for when he leaves for texas next year...will college overshadow the whole thing? while i be over him by then? or will i be left here to cry by myself? right now it doesn't matter though...i think i'm blissfully happy.
tony was just here. he dropped off some cd's and finnish chocolate and we ended up talking for a while. it went smooth. i couldn't look at him in the face tho when i spoke to him. but i'm glad for him.
the ex called me today. i'm so happy. it was like those convos when you speak to someone when u really don't....you just call to have the person on the other line while you watch tv or go online...with a little talk in between...nothing specific to say...just happy to be on the line w/each other. ::sigh:: am i hopeless? most likely....
but im scared....for when he leaves for texas next year...will college overshadow the whole thing? while i be over him by then? or will i be left here to cry by myself? right now it doesn't matter though...i think i'm blissfully happy.