Coming to terms with the fact that you dont mean much anymore
My subject line says it all.
Enough thought, enough comparison to former times of happiness. Enough. I cant believe that I let someone's decision (no matter how much it may have hurt me) cripple me for months. I guess this is where my skin gets tougher and the thoughts about her begin to blur and I cant remember quite so well what made it feel like my chest cavity was hollow as a dead rotted out tree. Its fading away, but I guess with the pain leaving, all them happy thoughts will trickle out as well. Good riddance I guess, what's a happy memory if it cant ever be realized again? I've been a shitty friend, I can atest to this with my track record with some people out there, I'm sorry. I know that isn't fixing anything, and that I cant fix anything right away, I tried before but it was too much.
I'm not as tough as you thought, you've run me into the ground and you probably dont even know, nor care.
I only lasted for so long because I wanted to hold onto some happy thought, I forget it now. But it meant the world to me.
I cant pick myself up this time, and I really dont want to.
So here's to all that unused hope I had for you, it was wasted like the hours I spent trying to figure out where me, my life, my happiness, all went wrong.
Enough thought, enough comparison to former times of happiness. Enough. I cant believe that I let someone's decision (no matter how much it may have hurt me) cripple me for months. I guess this is where my skin gets tougher and the thoughts about her begin to blur and I cant remember quite so well what made it feel like my chest cavity was hollow as a dead rotted out tree. Its fading away, but I guess with the pain leaving, all them happy thoughts will trickle out as well. Good riddance I guess, what's a happy memory if it cant ever be realized again? I've been a shitty friend, I can atest to this with my track record with some people out there, I'm sorry. I know that isn't fixing anything, and that I cant fix anything right away, I tried before but it was too much.
I'm not as tough as you thought, you've run me into the ground and you probably dont even know, nor care.
I only lasted for so long because I wanted to hold onto some happy thought, I forget it now. But it meant the world to me.
I cant pick myself up this time, and I really dont want to.
So here's to all that unused hope I had for you, it was wasted like the hours I spent trying to figure out where me, my life, my happiness, all went wrong.