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i feel like im finally happy for once in a while. all this stuff with ryan didnt help my christmas at all and im still kinda screwd from what happend. justin and i went out off and on for a year i recall him asking me out i think christmas eve or so and we went out for a while but then i was confused and broke up with hima couple of times. Why do i go looking for something that isnt there? especially when i already have what i want. Justin can piss me off but hes the only guy thats made me really be happy in every way shape and form. what more could i ask for? so i think ive decided to give it a shot again see if he can deal with me for another year...i sure hope so because i dont wanna lose him i think hes the one for me haha im so stupid terribly young and sayting that but hey if i really want him i sure i could have him for the rest of mylife.I dunno why i was resorting to robert and ryan and other guys to try to find love and happiness when i new i was being fake to myself. im glad im finally realizing whats right in front of me ....i love you justin
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