>>...can I swallow this bottle whole, so this brain in my head can forget your face...
I had the most awesome night! I went out with a guy, Travis, and had a great time. We went over to Pier Marquette, walked along the pier, sat on a big rock, talked... walked down the beach, talked... it was great. I forgot about all of my problems and all of that shit. It was great.
And now, I'm back home and *BOOM* reality hits. My house is still a mess, my brother is still sitting on his lazy fucking ass doing nothing, as usual, and I'm the one who has to clean everything up. I'm the one who has to be responsible and do things the "adult" way. My mom always holds me up to such high standards, but when it comes to Christopher or Jessica, she's like, "Well, that's them. That's what they do... nothing." Why the fuck should that be acceptable? Ugh. Sometimes life is so un-fucking-fair.
Okay, but now... I feel bad for going out with Travis tonight... he's a really sweet guy, he's really cute, and he's just awesome... but there's still Duane. I think the only reason I went out with Travis tonight was because Duane is in Grand Rapids and Travis was willing to drive here to hang out.
I feel like such a dirty ass. I had fun with Travis. I had a great time. I dunno.
I'm fucked up in the head.
The end.
And now, I'm back home and *BOOM* reality hits. My house is still a mess, my brother is still sitting on his lazy fucking ass doing nothing, as usual, and I'm the one who has to clean everything up. I'm the one who has to be responsible and do things the "adult" way. My mom always holds me up to such high standards, but when it comes to Christopher or Jessica, she's like, "Well, that's them. That's what they do... nothing." Why the fuck should that be acceptable? Ugh. Sometimes life is so un-fucking-fair.
Okay, but now... I feel bad for going out with Travis tonight... he's a really sweet guy, he's really cute, and he's just awesome... but there's still Duane. I think the only reason I went out with Travis tonight was because Duane is in Grand Rapids and Travis was willing to drive here to hang out.
I feel like such a dirty ass. I had fun with Travis. I had a great time. I dunno.
I'm fucked up in the head.
The end.