Friday
Not much going on around here (obviously). Work and sleep, sleep and work. Oh, and few bumps in the road for good measure.
The library will be closing very soon, I'm afraid. Still not sure exactly when, but they've started tearing up the first tier of the back lot (where the new addition will be) and should be pouring a foundation within a couple of weeks. Once they pour the foundation, we'll know exactly when we'll be closing. My boss had said probably around the first of the year, but I think it will be sooner than that.
So, what to do? Don't you know, as soon as the library closes, the apartment complex will call to let me know an apartment is ready for me?
I've been looking at full-time stuff and have found a few things. The problem is, I'm so discouraged right now because nothing has come of my previous searches. I'm considering asking Cindy if I can work at the school district while the library is closed, just doing odds and ends stuff, maybe 20-25 hours a week. I really, really should ask her. What could it hurt? Just till I find something else or the library reopens or something.
All right. Next week, I'll ask.
Yesterday was a good day there. I love talking to Jason. He brightens my day. And I guess he likes talking to me also--we spent the entire time I was there talking to each other. And laughing. And teasing each other. And he told me of some tough stuff he's dealing with right now. And I sensed a change in the way he responded to me. Something in his words.
But then, I'm probably being stupid, because he did say he doesn't want a girlfriend right now.
So. That's that.
*****
In other news, my mother told me if I decided I wanted to be a teacher and wanted to go back to school to get my certification, she'd pay for it.
All of it.
Yeah.
*****
At least I know a few things for certain:
My mom is the best person ever, because she's retired now and has no business even offering her savings like that to me, but she's doing it because she loves me and wants to help me;
My car is dying and I can't afford a new one;
I'm so screwed up, I couldn't even handle a relationship right now were I to be in one;
yet despite this, I still want one.
And as my mom says, either shit or get off the pot. Heh.
What to do, what to do.
The library will be closing very soon, I'm afraid. Still not sure exactly when, but they've started tearing up the first tier of the back lot (where the new addition will be) and should be pouring a foundation within a couple of weeks. Once they pour the foundation, we'll know exactly when we'll be closing. My boss had said probably around the first of the year, but I think it will be sooner than that.
So, what to do? Don't you know, as soon as the library closes, the apartment complex will call to let me know an apartment is ready for me?
I've been looking at full-time stuff and have found a few things. The problem is, I'm so discouraged right now because nothing has come of my previous searches. I'm considering asking Cindy if I can work at the school district while the library is closed, just doing odds and ends stuff, maybe 20-25 hours a week. I really, really should ask her. What could it hurt? Just till I find something else or the library reopens or something.
All right. Next week, I'll ask.
Yesterday was a good day there. I love talking to Jason. He brightens my day. And I guess he likes talking to me also--we spent the entire time I was there talking to each other. And laughing. And teasing each other. And he told me of some tough stuff he's dealing with right now. And I sensed a change in the way he responded to me. Something in his words.
But then, I'm probably being stupid, because he did say he doesn't want a girlfriend right now.
So. That's that.
*****
In other news, my mother told me if I decided I wanted to be a teacher and wanted to go back to school to get my certification, she'd pay for it.
All of it.
Yeah.
*****
At least I know a few things for certain:
My mom is the best person ever, because she's retired now and has no business even offering her savings like that to me, but she's doing it because she loves me and wants to help me;
My car is dying and I can't afford a new one;
I'm so screwed up, I couldn't even handle a relationship right now were I to be in one;
yet despite this, I still want one.
And as my mom says, either shit or get off the pot. Heh.
What to do, what to do.