Life... help??
I haven't turned to LJ for my problems in a long time, but my brain is literally on overload from today's events.
I have heard all of the sayings... life handing you lemons, windows and doors opening and shutting. My friend Allie had a nice one today: a door slams shut in your face and then something else opens up.
Well... today something slammed in my face. My boss told me that she can't hire me come May. I wasn't in the budget, thank you wonderful economy. They told her to hire a temp and move on. She said she doesn't want me in a temp agency. Being the sweet and wonderful person that she is, she had already checked out the available positions on our internal site and recommended some to me. Granted, the list is slim pickings. She was very angry about the whole situation, but there is nothing that can be done. Today I contacted two recruiters for the two jobs I really liked. One was out of office, and the other did not respond. One job deals with catching terrorists and mainly doing research and reporting. The pay is pretty baseline, but the company has good benefits. The other job is a much more expanded and developed version of what I am doing now as a semi-intern. It would require a lot more of me (so it seems) and I would have to learn alot, but the pay is much greater. This second job would allow me to get my own place and live an independent lifestyle.
Which brings me to my major freak out. It seems the odds of me getting hired right now are slim and none, and even less within the marketing areas. Sure I have tons of honors, experience, grades, what have you- but the fact of the matter is that NO ONE is hiring. Here is my connundrum: get a job that pays well, will allow me to get my masters, but isn't exactly what I want to do... or hold out, broke, jobless until I find something else?
I have big plans for the next couple months. I truly want to get my MBA, but I can't afford it without help. TRP can do that. I really want my own place, even if I have to have roommates. I can't afford that without a secure job. TRP can provide one. I must get health insurance and be able to take on bills and other responsibilities. I need a job for this.
I will have several networking opportunities in the next few months. Our school and the AMA will both be hosting events. I guess I will really need to suck it up and start showing myself off. I am not good at talking myself up in any way.
So I'm pretty much having the senior year omg here comes life what do I do crisis. It seems to be a popular trend right now, especially since my graduating class is facing the worst economy in oh like thirty years. Add to this the fact that I have a thousand people with high expectations hanging over my head, and I'm feeling the pressure for sure.
Jamie keeps telling me to go with the flow. I am struggling to maintain an even head and to not lose myself to worry and anxiety as usual. I made myself sick already today over this, and I need to let go while still being proactive. I put loads of pressure on myself to succeed, only now I think I need a better balance of it. God help me if I am granted interviews... I may just keel over.
So... how does one solve the senioritis crisis?
Also, I am getting majorly high hopes for this U2 album. I read a breakdown of the songs today and I am very intrigued. Keeping my fingers crossed! For that and just about everything else these days.
Have a BeU2ful Day!
THE STEF<---------------- gowiththeflowgowiththeflowgowiththeflow
I have heard all of the sayings... life handing you lemons, windows and doors opening and shutting. My friend Allie had a nice one today: a door slams shut in your face and then something else opens up.
Well... today something slammed in my face. My boss told me that she can't hire me come May. I wasn't in the budget, thank you wonderful economy. They told her to hire a temp and move on. She said she doesn't want me in a temp agency. Being the sweet and wonderful person that she is, she had already checked out the available positions on our internal site and recommended some to me. Granted, the list is slim pickings. She was very angry about the whole situation, but there is nothing that can be done. Today I contacted two recruiters for the two jobs I really liked. One was out of office, and the other did not respond. One job deals with catching terrorists and mainly doing research and reporting. The pay is pretty baseline, but the company has good benefits. The other job is a much more expanded and developed version of what I am doing now as a semi-intern. It would require a lot more of me (so it seems) and I would have to learn alot, but the pay is much greater. This second job would allow me to get my own place and live an independent lifestyle.
Which brings me to my major freak out. It seems the odds of me getting hired right now are slim and none, and even less within the marketing areas. Sure I have tons of honors, experience, grades, what have you- but the fact of the matter is that NO ONE is hiring. Here is my connundrum: get a job that pays well, will allow me to get my masters, but isn't exactly what I want to do... or hold out, broke, jobless until I find something else?
I have big plans for the next couple months. I truly want to get my MBA, but I can't afford it without help. TRP can do that. I really want my own place, even if I have to have roommates. I can't afford that without a secure job. TRP can provide one. I must get health insurance and be able to take on bills and other responsibilities. I need a job for this.
I will have several networking opportunities in the next few months. Our school and the AMA will both be hosting events. I guess I will really need to suck it up and start showing myself off. I am not good at talking myself up in any way.
So I'm pretty much having the senior year omg here comes life what do I do crisis. It seems to be a popular trend right now, especially since my graduating class is facing the worst economy in oh like thirty years. Add to this the fact that I have a thousand people with high expectations hanging over my head, and I'm feeling the pressure for sure.
Jamie keeps telling me to go with the flow. I am struggling to maintain an even head and to not lose myself to worry and anxiety as usual. I made myself sick already today over this, and I need to let go while still being proactive. I put loads of pressure on myself to succeed, only now I think I need a better balance of it. God help me if I am granted interviews... I may just keel over.
So... how does one solve the senioritis crisis?
Also, I am getting majorly high hopes for this U2 album. I read a breakdown of the songs today and I am very intrigued. Keeping my fingers crossed! For that and just about everything else these days.
Have a BeU2ful Day!
THE STEF<---------------- gowiththeflowgowiththeflowgowiththeflow