The picture says it all....
I want so badly to be able to just get mad, and I can't. I don't know why. I hate being angry. I hate letting people get that much control over my emotional state and well-being. Yes I admit it, in many ways you are all correct I can be emotionally closed off, but I do it on purpose, defense mechanisms and all. But right now I just wish I could feel as angry and pissed off as I think I should be about all of this stuff, but I just feel disappointed, let down. I feel sad for him that he still can't admit he's in the wrong and needs to blame everyone but himself for the mess he's in. I've stopped caring that he keeps trying to blame me. He can blame me all he wants because everyone else knows better, now. But I still wish I could get angry...