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I know I'm horrible about actually posting things, thoughts, real-life, and such, but I really do pay attention to what is going on here. I promise. I've started making a few random posts on my myspace blog now and then, but since there are nieces and nephews and siblings on there, I'm obviously keeping this for those less family appropriate comments, etc.
Here's what is going on: school, work, my other work, coffee addiction, gym, life (lovin' 15 Shannon St.)
In the cut are more things going on in my brain right now, but it's mostly so that I can write things down "on paper" to make myself see them, admit them, and do something about them...
School is going well. I like my classes. I enjoy the topics, the professors, my classmates, etc. I am swamped, however. I can't get going in any significant way on a VERY significant paper that I need to do some major work on. Mostly this is because I am highly distracted by life these days. I'm exhausted, so I leave the library and I go home. But once I'm home, all thought of school is out the window. There are days to catch up on with my roommates, tv shows to monitor, websites to keep track of, delicious foods to eat, and a lot of lazy to be had. I only work 2 days a week (Sundays at EB and Fridays at the law office) but that is still two extra days a week that I am not getting any work done for school. And now, my lawyer even calls me for favors DURING the week, because she's swamped and shit needs to get done. She needs a second attorney/permanent legal assistant. The secretary alone cannot keep up with everything, even just little fill-in the template projects, on top of her own work load on a daily basis. Yana and I are both there 1 day a week, and that's really not enough time for us to get through EVERYTHING. I'm thinking that I'm going to quit the week before Thanksgiving, because I'm gone for the holiday, then finals, then christmas/new years, and I don't know my second semester schedule just yet, but I know I want to do a clinic, so we'll see what my time looks like, and I want to try something else for next summer. I've even considered trying to find an internship back home if possible. I really don't know where I want to take the bar yet, and it's starting to get problematic.
So, I was doing really well with the weight, etc. Until school started getting to me. Now the stress is just packing back on pounds and I'm not at the gym enough to combat it. I'm still wearing the same size clothes, but I can tell that things have just moved and proportionally shifted here and there. There are certain things that always gain/lose first...(my face and my chest). So, now I'm just getting frustrated. I think it's time to start the actual "dieting" thing again. Livi and I were doing it together sophomore and junior year and it helped. Things were well here, but then this summer I was at a desk 40 hours a week and no where near a gym thanks to the commute. so, that didn't help a lot. But I wasn't as stressed, so my eating was fairly regular and porportionate to my activity. Now, I'm back in the habit of skimping on/skipping meals because I'm caught up doing work or running late, and it's throwing things off all over again. It's not a huge deal. I'm not "fat", but if I don't work on this it is going to get unhealthy. My mother, my sisters, we all have the propensity for this to happen. Mom has been fighting with her weight for years. And we all know that the habits we grow up with influence our habits as we get older. Stress eating for example. Luckily, I have lactose issues, so sitting down and eating whole pints of icecream at a time has not been an option my body has allowed...but when I get really stressed about something or even just bored, i'll eat to give myself something to do. Instead I need to get out and go for a walk, just something more productive.
On happier notes, I love my housemates. We have our little tiffs here and there, now and then, but mostly we all click very well. We've had a few house parties, and have another coming up for Halloween. However, as much as I love them. I miss people from home still, as much as ever. I'm trying to get home for Thanksgiving, but tickets are really expensive, and I don't know if I'm going to need my car, so I don't want to take it home and then have to go back and get it if I need it second semester for clinics or work or something. But Jill is going away over Christmas, so I won't see her unless I'm home for Thanksgiving, and with the holidays getting closer, I worry about her and for her so much. I also get the feeling that my family thinks I've forgotten about them. But I haven't, I'm distant and closed off, and so much different from all of them, but I still love them more than anything else in the world. They're my family. They are my rock, always.
See, overly distracted, I was supposed to be sitting here reading and doing homework, that's obviously NOT what I've been doing. This is forever long. I'll keep you posted about things though...I promise. PS love and miss you all, too.!
Here's what is going on: school, work, my other work, coffee addiction, gym, life (lovin' 15 Shannon St.)
In the cut are more things going on in my brain right now, but it's mostly so that I can write things down "on paper" to make myself see them, admit them, and do something about them...
School is going well. I like my classes. I enjoy the topics, the professors, my classmates, etc. I am swamped, however. I can't get going in any significant way on a VERY significant paper that I need to do some major work on. Mostly this is because I am highly distracted by life these days. I'm exhausted, so I leave the library and I go home. But once I'm home, all thought of school is out the window. There are days to catch up on with my roommates, tv shows to monitor, websites to keep track of, delicious foods to eat, and a lot of lazy to be had. I only work 2 days a week (Sundays at EB and Fridays at the law office) but that is still two extra days a week that I am not getting any work done for school. And now, my lawyer even calls me for favors DURING the week, because she's swamped and shit needs to get done. She needs a second attorney/permanent legal assistant. The secretary alone cannot keep up with everything, even just little fill-in the template projects, on top of her own work load on a daily basis. Yana and I are both there 1 day a week, and that's really not enough time for us to get through EVERYTHING. I'm thinking that I'm going to quit the week before Thanksgiving, because I'm gone for the holiday, then finals, then christmas/new years, and I don't know my second semester schedule just yet, but I know I want to do a clinic, so we'll see what my time looks like, and I want to try something else for next summer. I've even considered trying to find an internship back home if possible. I really don't know where I want to take the bar yet, and it's starting to get problematic.
So, I was doing really well with the weight, etc. Until school started getting to me. Now the stress is just packing back on pounds and I'm not at the gym enough to combat it. I'm still wearing the same size clothes, but I can tell that things have just moved and proportionally shifted here and there. There are certain things that always gain/lose first...(my face and my chest). So, now I'm just getting frustrated. I think it's time to start the actual "dieting" thing again. Livi and I were doing it together sophomore and junior year and it helped. Things were well here, but then this summer I was at a desk 40 hours a week and no where near a gym thanks to the commute. so, that didn't help a lot. But I wasn't as stressed, so my eating was fairly regular and porportionate to my activity. Now, I'm back in the habit of skimping on/skipping meals because I'm caught up doing work or running late, and it's throwing things off all over again. It's not a huge deal. I'm not "fat", but if I don't work on this it is going to get unhealthy. My mother, my sisters, we all have the propensity for this to happen. Mom has been fighting with her weight for years. And we all know that the habits we grow up with influence our habits as we get older. Stress eating for example. Luckily, I have lactose issues, so sitting down and eating whole pints of icecream at a time has not been an option my body has allowed...but when I get really stressed about something or even just bored, i'll eat to give myself something to do. Instead I need to get out and go for a walk, just something more productive.
On happier notes, I love my housemates. We have our little tiffs here and there, now and then, but mostly we all click very well. We've had a few house parties, and have another coming up for Halloween. However, as much as I love them. I miss people from home still, as much as ever. I'm trying to get home for Thanksgiving, but tickets are really expensive, and I don't know if I'm going to need my car, so I don't want to take it home and then have to go back and get it if I need it second semester for clinics or work or something. But Jill is going away over Christmas, so I won't see her unless I'm home for Thanksgiving, and with the holidays getting closer, I worry about her and for her so much. I also get the feeling that my family thinks I've forgotten about them. But I haven't, I'm distant and closed off, and so much different from all of them, but I still love them more than anything else in the world. They're my family. They are my rock, always.
See, overly distracted, I was supposed to be sitting here reading and doing homework, that's obviously NOT what I've been doing. This is forever long. I'll keep you posted about things though...I promise. PS love and miss you all, too.!