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so much thought, so many emotions. I feel like I might explode, and I don't even really know why. I love FEELING...I hate not being able to pinpoint what I feel about what.
I talked to Jill today. It would have been Zack's 26th birthday. It's still so surreal. I don't think it will really hit any of us until christmas. I can't even remember the last time I sang at church without Zack there conducting, playing, goofying off. But Jill still hurts so much, which is understandable. I just wish Zack's family could understand that she may not miss him the same way they do, she didn't have all those years of childhood watching him grow up. But she had known him for years, and they did mean sooo much to eachother. She was everything to him that last year. And she just needs for them to acknowledge that and tell her that it's okay for her to grieve. And to let her grieve with them. She was a part of the family before, and now they want to shut her out. Consequently, she just feels more and more alone.
On a happier note, I'm absolutely in love with all my new housemates. We just click! it's amazing. We go out and we stay in, and we drink and we party and we chill and we play games and we talk about everything and nothing. In short, they are trying really hard to give the party duplex a run for it's money, but don't worry my home loves, they've got nothing on you, except that the boys cuddle really well!
Boston, more and more homey than last year. Not that I don't still miss home nearly everyday. Brian, Toumey, Kyle --- TELEPORTATION!!! get on that shit! So far classes are much more in sync with my brain this year, so I think we're going to be okay. Livi needs to screw grad school and come live here with me. Amanda, you just started, so you have to try and stick it out for at least a little while first.
I feel more serious posts coming in the future...prepare yourselves. Okay, I'm off.
I talked to Jill today. It would have been Zack's 26th birthday. It's still so surreal. I don't think it will really hit any of us until christmas. I can't even remember the last time I sang at church without Zack there conducting, playing, goofying off. But Jill still hurts so much, which is understandable. I just wish Zack's family could understand that she may not miss him the same way they do, she didn't have all those years of childhood watching him grow up. But she had known him for years, and they did mean sooo much to eachother. She was everything to him that last year. And she just needs for them to acknowledge that and tell her that it's okay for her to grieve. And to let her grieve with them. She was a part of the family before, and now they want to shut her out. Consequently, she just feels more and more alone.
On a happier note, I'm absolutely in love with all my new housemates. We just click! it's amazing. We go out and we stay in, and we drink and we party and we chill and we play games and we talk about everything and nothing. In short, they are trying really hard to give the party duplex a run for it's money, but don't worry my home loves, they've got nothing on you, except that the boys cuddle really well!
Boston, more and more homey than last year. Not that I don't still miss home nearly everyday. Brian, Toumey, Kyle --- TELEPORTATION!!! get on that shit! So far classes are much more in sync with my brain this year, so I think we're going to be okay. Livi needs to screw grad school and come live here with me. Amanda, you just started, so you have to try and stick it out for at least a little while first.
I feel more serious posts coming in the future...prepare yourselves. Okay, I'm off.