Where the worl slaps you in the face...
Its funny at times when you think things are rolling along really smoothly and then you realise that something not quite right.
I had no idea what to write about but i thought i would just tell you all about my day. I started off with a great day. I had to get up at 5am to start work at 6 but then only worked 4 hours and finished at 10. So i chilled at home for a while and then went and met my mate (Jade Craven) in the city. We lunched it, wandered around and i actually bought the Benrik diary, hurrah. Then since it was late afternoon i headed home to relax whilst playing a little sims and chillin again.
And thats where i originally ended this entry except that i just recieved a call from my mum. In 2001, she had a stroke/head injury. It damaged her optical nerve and she's half blind in both eyes. Alot of other things happened but all of which she got over. However, as of late ive noticed that she seems to be getting worse. At one stage she was driving everywhere and working lots and always looked nice. Now, she lost her job (nothing to do with the head injury), shes having car accidents and forgeting things, lots of confusion and depression. She always looks drab and never dresses up anymore. She rang me just then to ask me to go over because she hit someone in her car. Not someone elses car but an actual person. Luckily she was only going 5kms but still, she might not have been. Last week i was watching her reverse her car and she was about 2 seconds away from hitting someone because she didnt see them.
I think she needs to get some more tests done. Just to make sure everything is alright. Im just really fucking scared, i dont want to go through all that again. It was fucked to start with, not again.
So now, im sitting here typing this, wishing i could be all jovial and happy since im going through a mini brain fuckup and this is the first time in a while ive been actually happy and then this wonderful little thought pops in my brain. yay.
Sorry if i bought a downer to anyones day. I just needed to verbalise this, i have 4 journals and im posting it to all of them. I just want to get this out before it hurts my head anymore.
I had no idea what to write about but i thought i would just tell you all about my day. I started off with a great day. I had to get up at 5am to start work at 6 but then only worked 4 hours and finished at 10. So i chilled at home for a while and then went and met my mate (Jade Craven) in the city. We lunched it, wandered around and i actually bought the Benrik diary, hurrah. Then since it was late afternoon i headed home to relax whilst playing a little sims and chillin again.
And thats where i originally ended this entry except that i just recieved a call from my mum. In 2001, she had a stroke/head injury. It damaged her optical nerve and she's half blind in both eyes. Alot of other things happened but all of which she got over. However, as of late ive noticed that she seems to be getting worse. At one stage she was driving everywhere and working lots and always looked nice. Now, she lost her job (nothing to do with the head injury), shes having car accidents and forgeting things, lots of confusion and depression. She always looks drab and never dresses up anymore. She rang me just then to ask me to go over because she hit someone in her car. Not someone elses car but an actual person. Luckily she was only going 5kms but still, she might not have been. Last week i was watching her reverse her car and she was about 2 seconds away from hitting someone because she didnt see them.
I think she needs to get some more tests done. Just to make sure everything is alright. Im just really fucking scared, i dont want to go through all that again. It was fucked to start with, not again.
So now, im sitting here typing this, wishing i could be all jovial and happy since im going through a mini brain fuckup and this is the first time in a while ive been actually happy and then this wonderful little thought pops in my brain. yay.
Sorry if i bought a downer to anyones day. I just needed to verbalise this, i have 4 journals and im posting it to all of them. I just want to get this out before it hurts my head anymore.