always waiting.

[bonnieanclyde]

waiting, always waiting.... im always waiting for everything.... for someonem, for time, for a chance, for a dub, for an answer, a moment, for something to do, always waiting, no matter whats going on im always waitng for something or someone.

Casey fucked me over, but thats okay its not big shock to anyone but me i guess. whatever. It buggs me but at the same time im not letting it get to me. i cant, it would just be pointless to let it eat me away. theres someone out there waiting for me to find them, im waiting for them to find me. Im done looking, im done im waiting now.
right now my life is
sex, drugs, and rock n roll.
Thats my life... sounds puthedic, but its fun.

Im waiting for two o clock to come along so i can head off to headers... 15 minutes away... i should probablye go do my make up.
but i dont even think im gonna put on make up today.
thats how much i dont give a fuck anymore. i dont even wear make up.... unless im going to a party, even then i dont put one make up sometimes. i dont know... dude i dont think its a good sign but at the same time i know in a way its a good sign.

i dont know
im so tyred of wondering what people are thinking of me when i look at them and talk to them.
theres so many things that could run thro their head about me
-shes a tweeker
-shes a slut
-shes dumb
-does she even know what shes talking about
-she so pretty
-shes gonna be a junkie in a few years

but they could also be thinking
-why dosnt anyone aprecitate this girl.
-whats so worng with her

i shouldnt even care about this enough to be taking abou it. i dont know
what do you think about me
if i were in a dictanary.... what would you put me under.... what would be my defanition?

i dont know
gotta go
peace peace