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In light of last night's grievances, I would like to know what you all think about me. Being 100% honest with me, tell me what you like/don't like about me and the reasons why. All comments will be screened, however, anonymous comments MUST be signed so that I know who says what. Don't ignore this post. I really want to know all of this.
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From day one you put me off. The moment I walked into the Forum in September of 2004 I first heard "Hello Drew the Tall One!" like you'd been a good friend of mine for years. I scarcely knew you, except you had dated Mikya. It was like you were tying to force yourself into my world and my life, when I don't think I'd ever uttered a single word to you before.
You present yourself as someone who has been in the Forum forever. When I hadn't seen you until the year prior, and then only in fleeting. You simply weren't there for the first three years that I remember. When rats were dropping dead, when the insanity that was Dawn and Nick breaking up happened, or those nights in the Forum till 3 AM where Sven Mikey and Don were drunk while down the hall the stomping of Bev and Ferd playing DDR could be heard. You may have come down at a point before I'd been down there, I don't know how long, I honestly don't care that much. I hardly knew you, the friends I'd made in the Forum and people who had grown up in the same Forum I had, adn worked their butts off to keep it running, didn't know you well at all. At best, you were a fringe forumite.
The night last spring when we were working on the boat and you started asking how long we'd been around, and you said you came down earlier than me, and then proceeded to ask Mikey when he'd come down I wanted to say "if you'd been around so damn long you'd remember" because I remember the first day Mikey was down as clearly as I remember day after day from November of 2001 to September of 2004 that you were not there.
Maybe that's the problem. If you'd come down with some humility, and quietness, with the demeanor of the "new person", it would have been easier to accept. Instead you planted yourself there as the oldest, loudest and all-knowing forumite. And if there is one thing I hate in the world is people who are loud just so they can make themselves the center of the universe, without earning it.
Now though, its genrally the loud talking non-stop. I can't sit down in the lounge and watch a movie anymore without the talking. I honestly get a visual reaction now to when your voice reaches a certain point. Please just quiet down.
I just have some simple questions now, do you truly like Sci-Fi? Outside of the absolte worst (the Star Wars Holiday Special) to the safe (Spaceballs), I honestly don't know what you like. The one book I've seen you take out was "The Never Ending Story". Are there five episodes of Star Trek you like that aren't comedy relief? Or five solid sci-fi books, or any paticular authors you love?
You've done a lot of work with the library, and that I honestly can't thank you enough that, with that alone in my mind you've earned the right to be down here, but that doesn't mean I'm your friend, and I suspect I never will be.
And as I stated last night, you have really done nothing directly malicious to me. I can accept there are flat out simply people in the world I don't like. That's the reason I was willing to give you a shot in the library. You are a Forumite, I can't kick you out. And if you help keep us in buisness I certainly would never feel inclined to.
Just know I will go to my grave with the knowledge that in all fairness if you had never come down, I never would have met the love of my life, I recognize that, it's something that wracks my brain from time to time, and I'll have to live with that for every day to come.
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