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Just now in the bath I decided Frida Kahlo is my favorite artist. It is rare for me to even concieve of choosing favorites but now I am fueled by rum and a loneliness which for some reason contributes greatly to my sense of self and decisiveness. It seems to me now that theism and humanism are deluded forms of egoism. The self portrait, which I often have viewed as the simplest study, tonight seems like the most complex study. Beyond color and line and etc, to do self portraiture, you must face yourself and all of your identities. Speaking of iden-titties, I have never done a self-portrait without large breasts. As I have had large breasts since I was 10 or so, it has become an integral part of my self concept. I certainly like to blame them for my lack of further development in athletics, butchism, performing arts, and even fashion. What would happen if I did self portraiture with small breasts? Would it be the me of my dreams or would Frida be a Frida without a uni-brow?

Quote:

"I paint self-portraits because I am so often alone, because I am the person I know best."