I can't breathe
I know plenty of people can survive working full time and going to school. Or even much more complicated schedules. But I am so scared about next semester. This summer, my one class is only a couple of hours, 3 days a week (2 days of which are my only days off work). Then there is trying to see Sam. For example today I get off work, drive down to Denver and drive back for work tomorrow. Apart from the distance, I am really happy with Sam. This love is so intense it feels dangerous, although its probably one of the healthiest relationships I've ever seen.
Whenever I do get some time I feel like there is always laundry to do, bills to pay (that I can never seem to afford), reading for school, or I'm just so exhausted that movies at home seem like the only thing I can handle. I haven't seen any friends for months. Except for Brian whom I get a couple of hours with every few weeks and I have to plan that weeks in advance. It's like "sure I can hang out tonight, I should be home by 11pm, or yeah tomorrow's great but I have to be at work by 1pm."
Next semester I'll have class pretty much all day 3 days week, and will still be working full time. Plus my sister is moving up here. I am so excited for that I can hardly sleep, but I wonder how will she fit into an even tighter schedule, when this summer I already feel like I don't have any time? So here is a "poem" (silliness to relieve stress):
What of the people I wanted to grow friendships with?
What of the painting, and reading I wanted to do?
I guess I must say "see you next year,"
when working and leisure are the only things I have to do.
When there's no tests to cram for or papers to write,
no 100 pages to read for class a night.
Whenever I do get some time I feel like there is always laundry to do, bills to pay (that I can never seem to afford), reading for school, or I'm just so exhausted that movies at home seem like the only thing I can handle. I haven't seen any friends for months. Except for Brian whom I get a couple of hours with every few weeks and I have to plan that weeks in advance. It's like "sure I can hang out tonight, I should be home by 11pm, or yeah tomorrow's great but I have to be at work by 1pm."
Next semester I'll have class pretty much all day 3 days week, and will still be working full time. Plus my sister is moving up here. I am so excited for that I can hardly sleep, but I wonder how will she fit into an even tighter schedule, when this summer I already feel like I don't have any time? So here is a "poem" (silliness to relieve stress):
What of the people I wanted to grow friendships with?
What of the painting, and reading I wanted to do?
I guess I must say "see you next year,"
when working and leisure are the only things I have to do.
When there's no tests to cram for or papers to write,
no 100 pages to read for class a night.