the first part of this post made me cry. i feel the same way right now. i'm going to family therapy because i've been walking far from my parents for a long time and they have no understanding of who i am. penguin clad, gay youth didn't exist in my mom's university accounting program. i'm ok with us being different, and they say they are too. but, apparantly i'm the first person in the family to reject generations of values...the same sort of values that have created lawful, spawn producing citizens. and, when i was 15 my response to, "what do you want to do when you grow up?" was "be an expatriot".
you're the only person who doesn't dissappoint me. i wish there were a way i could get a degree in yr apartment in street feminism and creative writing. i hate these fucking schools we're going to. when does it end? we're in these institutions and it's so hard to escape. because these institutions are woven with people we love- our friends, our parents hopes and dreams. On a micro-level it's all beautiful. But, all of these beautiful things are the bricks in this big, fucked up machine, and what the hell are we to do about it but ride ponies in iceland and look for elves. or in my case, sit in bed all day mourning that i don't fit in here. nobody has been fitting in anywhere since the history of humanity and everyone is too big of a coward to do anything about it.
you're the only person who doesn't dissappoint me. i wish there were a way i could get a degree in yr apartment in street feminism and creative writing. i hate these fucking schools we're going to. when does it end? we're in these institutions and it's so hard to escape. because these institutions are woven with people we love- our friends, our parents hopes and dreams. On a micro-level it's all beautiful. But, all of these beautiful things are the bricks in this big, fucked up machine, and what the hell are we to do about it but ride ponies in iceland and look for elves. or in my case, sit in bed all day mourning that i don't fit in here. nobody has been fitting in anywhere since the history of humanity and everyone is too big of a coward to do anything about it.
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