An entry
I was reminded by the ever loving jez that i haven't blog in ages.
Just an update.
Things happen at the speed of light here n it seems like there are so many things going on at the same time that i haven't really have the time to even really take care of myself.
I feel sorry that i have neglected myself in so many ways the past few months.
Tonight, there is a calm. yet at the same time anxiety in my soul.
I'm worried about a few things and i haven't been able to voice out everything side.
Today i come clean.
I'm worried about moving out into the burbs. There are some current issues regarding a change in my mentality in regards to rent and i think i should start exploring new places n have a change in my living arrangement.
I'm worried because i have yet to find a decent place at a decent price. At the same time, the ones that i want to stay in are leased or their application pending (which means little hope or dun waste ur time enquiring..).
Next is the issue regarding staying in Australia.
I haven't told anyone this except Jamie. I gave up the chance for my current work place to sponsor me because i cannot see myself "selling my soul" to this place i currently cannot stand working for anymore.
Therefore the next option is to extend my studies. What i haven't told u guys is.. there are some issues as well.
um hum. Let's leave it as that. n the what if i have to head back to Singapore? If so, i will be the saddest person alive.
What i really hope to achieve within this two weeks is to have my shit all cleared due to procrastination. Get a new job because i already quit it and i drag my feet to work every time i have work and it is juz not helping me grow and develop what i need in achieving my dream.
i reckon i'm young and reckless and old, burdened and jaded at the same time.
irony.
hopefully the next post u see is me sorting everything out.
peace.
Just an update.
Things happen at the speed of light here n it seems like there are so many things going on at the same time that i haven't really have the time to even really take care of myself.
I feel sorry that i have neglected myself in so many ways the past few months.
Tonight, there is a calm. yet at the same time anxiety in my soul.
I'm worried about a few things and i haven't been able to voice out everything side.
Today i come clean.
I'm worried about moving out into the burbs. There are some current issues regarding a change in my mentality in regards to rent and i think i should start exploring new places n have a change in my living arrangement.
I'm worried because i have yet to find a decent place at a decent price. At the same time, the ones that i want to stay in are leased or their application pending (which means little hope or dun waste ur time enquiring..).
Next is the issue regarding staying in Australia.
I haven't told anyone this except Jamie. I gave up the chance for my current work place to sponsor me because i cannot see myself "selling my soul" to this place i currently cannot stand working for anymore.
Therefore the next option is to extend my studies. What i haven't told u guys is.. there are some issues as well.
um hum. Let's leave it as that. n the what if i have to head back to Singapore? If so, i will be the saddest person alive.
What i really hope to achieve within this two weeks is to have my shit all cleared due to procrastination. Get a new job because i already quit it and i drag my feet to work every time i have work and it is juz not helping me grow and develop what i need in achieving my dream.
i reckon i'm young and reckless and old, burdened and jaded at the same time.
irony.
hopefully the next post u see is me sorting everything out.
peace.