Juz an update.
It has been strange..
Exhaustion.
Let me update starting from Last Sunday.
Daylesford for a daytrip since i had 3 consecutive off days for the first time after so long.
I cannot remember wat i did on the monday (i think we went to loop bar) but i spend the entire day with J on tues with was nicely pleasant. we met tersh at cookie b4 going back to tersh's to cook.
We rushed to Glen Waverley to spend more time together and caught our penguin.
Send J home b4 calling B to meet up for drinks only to realise it was like 11pm and i had to work at 6.30am next morning and she was with C.
Wed and thurs was work. spend time alone at the beach.
Torn.
Alia on thurs night. feeling shitty. i think Jen saw it.
that when drama starts.
Fri, more drama. GB night till 3am.
Sat morning woke up at 6.30am n was late for work.
went home early for the first time at 9ish after falling aslp at t's couch.
Had thrashing out to do but felt good after the talk with J.
Sunday
Worked, met t, j, l and ? at cookie.
bad bad bad feel.
midsummas carnival.
Home at 12am. feeling shit.
Had a nightmare and woke up at 7.30am to realise i had school starting at 8am not 8.30am.
i had a nightmare about going home, dogs, seeing friends once again..
and i was torn about keeping secrets because both parties were friends to me.
So today had been quite eventful. spending time alone.
I went to school. All smiles at the familiar faces.
I drew a very artistic pen graffiti on my left arm during lecture (i should take a photo shot of it). Washed my car, vacuumed, went to bank, laundry, drive thru macs. drying clothes now. going to take nap.
today i'm sad because i feel like crying my heart out for a friend.
I dislike someone's action yet understand completely why certain things happen.
Happy because someone else msg me yesterday night and this morning.
simple things. yet they affect me.
Sometimes i want to shut up the world. and say. Screw you. It's none of my business so go fuck urself.
I hate ur actions.
NUMB MY EMOTIONS AND SWITCH OFF
n i'm upset.
and yes the dream is affecting me very much.
i'm waking up later to load round two of clothes in dryer, throw rubbish. pack and vacuum room.
pack my notes. pack my chef's tool box. pack the living room and bathe.
wish me luck.
School is going to be so exciting....
and call J for dinner later.
(*note all the alphapets are to safekeep identities and to confuse all readers which alphabet stands for who lol)
exhaustion is the beginning of this semester because i'm either schooling or working everyday.
cheers to a new semester.
Exhaustion.
Let me update starting from Last Sunday.
Daylesford for a daytrip since i had 3 consecutive off days for the first time after so long.
I cannot remember wat i did on the monday (i think we went to loop bar) but i spend the entire day with J on tues with was nicely pleasant. we met tersh at cookie b4 going back to tersh's to cook.
We rushed to Glen Waverley to spend more time together and caught our penguin.
Send J home b4 calling B to meet up for drinks only to realise it was like 11pm and i had to work at 6.30am next morning and she was with C.
Wed and thurs was work. spend time alone at the beach.
Torn.
Alia on thurs night. feeling shitty. i think Jen saw it.
that when drama starts.
Fri, more drama. GB night till 3am.
Sat morning woke up at 6.30am n was late for work.
went home early for the first time at 9ish after falling aslp at t's couch.
Had thrashing out to do but felt good after the talk with J.
Sunday
Worked, met t, j, l and ? at cookie.
bad bad bad feel.
midsummas carnival.
Home at 12am. feeling shit.
Had a nightmare and woke up at 7.30am to realise i had school starting at 8am not 8.30am.
i had a nightmare about going home, dogs, seeing friends once again..
and i was torn about keeping secrets because both parties were friends to me.
So today had been quite eventful. spending time alone.
I went to school. All smiles at the familiar faces.
I drew a very artistic pen graffiti on my left arm during lecture (i should take a photo shot of it). Washed my car, vacuumed, went to bank, laundry, drive thru macs. drying clothes now. going to take nap.
today i'm sad because i feel like crying my heart out for a friend.
I dislike someone's action yet understand completely why certain things happen.
Happy because someone else msg me yesterday night and this morning.
simple things. yet they affect me.
Sometimes i want to shut up the world. and say. Screw you. It's none of my business so go fuck urself.
I hate ur actions.
NUMB MY EMOTIONS AND SWITCH OFF
n i'm upset.
and yes the dream is affecting me very much.
i'm waking up later to load round two of clothes in dryer, throw rubbish. pack and vacuum room.
pack my notes. pack my chef's tool box. pack the living room and bathe.
wish me luck.
School is going to be so exciting....
and call J for dinner later.
(*note all the alphapets are to safekeep identities and to confuse all readers which alphabet stands for who lol)
exhaustion is the beginning of this semester because i'm either schooling or working everyday.
cheers to a new semester.