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i visited chs today, and memories of high school came flooding back. it made me miss it a little, but not enough for me to want to go back in time. i do miss sitting in class with friends, and seeing the same people the next period, or later on in the day. the visit today forced me to compare myself now, and the person i was the same time last year. i suppose the difference is more so than ever, i'm questioning what i want to do with myself, and what is important to me. outside the rigidity of the high school curriculum i've really had a chance to not figure myself out, but realize that i've got a great deal more to realize. i feel somewhat rushed to declare a major because so many others around me already have mapped out for the, their four years at school, and i'm basically dinking around confused and indecisive. i went back hoping to receive some words of encouragement that would impel my lazy self to try harder, but i did not receive any, and now i realize i shouldn't have expected any becasue i've got to drive myself intrisically first. meh..that's tough, especially after the total lethargy my brain has undergone since winterbreak began. i'm back at school on saturday, so here's to another round, hopefully a better one, of homework, midterms, and finals.