matsuri #2
Considering how frazzled/desolate/insane/miserable I was around this time last year, I'm surprised at how composed and, well, calm, I am this week.
Is it going to degenerate? Is the worst on its way? Or is this the benefit of experience? I have difficulty believing we're in better shape than last year mostly because Angela, Agnes, and Maki were fucking goddesses, but... perhaps I should just stop talking so I don't jinx anything.
The fact that I don't have to deal with chorus anymore can't possibly be the only source of my relative internal peace.
Dear world -- please be nice. Thank you very much so far.
The irritation surrounding noncomittal bastards (less so) and the lack of reciprocation still stand. It pisses the hell out of me that I put my entire life into exactly one event each year and people who I consider friends can't even be bothered to walk the 10 minutes to take a look. I'm not lying when I say my love is directly correlated to attendance -- barring obvious and valid excuses, it is absolutely ridiculous that you cannot show up for 5 minutes to say hi and pretend you care. Most people are pretty good about this, I think. I was just expecting more. I guess that's more a testament to the weakness of my relationships and not necessarily people in general, though.
On our cultural festival on Saturday I will take many pictures and you will all know what I was talking about :)
Is it going to degenerate? Is the worst on its way? Or is this the benefit of experience? I have difficulty believing we're in better shape than last year mostly because Angela, Agnes, and Maki were fucking goddesses, but... perhaps I should just stop talking so I don't jinx anything.
The fact that I don't have to deal with chorus anymore can't possibly be the only source of my relative internal peace.
Dear world -- please be nice. Thank you very much so far.
The irritation surrounding noncomittal bastards (less so) and the lack of reciprocation still stand. It pisses the hell out of me that I put my entire life into exactly one event each year and people who I consider friends can't even be bothered to walk the 10 minutes to take a look. I'm not lying when I say my love is directly correlated to attendance -- barring obvious and valid excuses, it is absolutely ridiculous that you cannot show up for 5 minutes to say hi and pretend you care. Most people are pretty good about this, I think. I was just expecting more. I guess that's more a testament to the weakness of my relationships and not necessarily people in general, though.
On our cultural festival on Saturday I will take many pictures and you will all know what I was talking about :)