all fights all week
You think you're 28 (closer now to 29) and so far past the teenage moody screaming fights with your parents... and then you're not. I am having a really confrontational week and it's really jarring.
I remember telling M maybe even last week that I call my mom daily and I'm close to her, especially because she keeps to herself and my dad passed. Turns out today she had been holding on to something I had said while we were fighting like a month ago when I didn't feel like she was listening to anything I was saying. She had twisted it in her head to mean I didn't want her to butt into any of my affairs and had been keeping her distance. Effectively, she's been hurt and angry at me for probably close to a month without saying anything about it.
Sooo she made a passive aggressive comment during our call and I pushed her on it and she flung my words back at me and cue screaming fight. I thought about hanging up several times but we ended up hashing enough out that it was almost cathartic and we ended all right. Still, like... there has to be a better way of talking through disagreements. I don't know why it always has to be like this.
I feel kind of stupid for pushing to get her to come here for Thanksgiving and thinking about going to visit her because she sounded so depressed. Like, really, what kind of dummy am I. I wonder about the relationships other people have with their families, in general. Why can't it be easy?
I remember telling M maybe even last week that I call my mom daily and I'm close to her, especially because she keeps to herself and my dad passed. Turns out today she had been holding on to something I had said while we were fighting like a month ago when I didn't feel like she was listening to anything I was saying. She had twisted it in her head to mean I didn't want her to butt into any of my affairs and had been keeping her distance. Effectively, she's been hurt and angry at me for probably close to a month without saying anything about it.
Sooo she made a passive aggressive comment during our call and I pushed her on it and she flung my words back at me and cue screaming fight. I thought about hanging up several times but we ended up hashing enough out that it was almost cathartic and we ended all right. Still, like... there has to be a better way of talking through disagreements. I don't know why it always has to be like this.
I feel kind of stupid for pushing to get her to come here for Thanksgiving and thinking about going to visit her because she sounded so depressed. Like, really, what kind of dummy am I. I wonder about the relationships other people have with their families, in general. Why can't it be easy?