today it hurts
maybe it's better to be honest about it then pretend like im ok.
i am ok. i was ok. i will be ok. that isnt what i meant.
i'm at my dad's, and my itunes here is all songs that remind me of you. and sitting at my vanity in my old room getting ready tonight reminded me of getting ready for our first date. but i'm going to spend the evening with someone else. it should have been you. i feel so stupid. i feel so sad.
later i will write.
before i drift off to sleep i'll write to keep myself from reaching for you. i write to remember. i sleep to forget.
you aren't there. you'll never be there. do you miss the quiet moments? lights on the water. taking steps and knowing my hand was supposed to hold yours. you made life worth living. i miss who you were when you were in love with me. how could i know you now? you will never be that person to me again. he was really amazing. he knew me and loved me anyway.
forget me now and meet someone else. love her. stuff her into the hole i left but maybe she won't fit in there quite the way i did. and maybe i'll never feel the way i felt with you, when things were good. that instant connection. the way my hand fit in yours. looking at you and knowing that you felt the exact same way, and that i was your world.
i am living my life without you now, and i always will be. it's fun and it's happy. but it's not beautiful.
i have so much love to give, and no one to give it to. it was supposed to be yours.
i am ok. i was ok. i will be ok. that isnt what i meant.
i'm at my dad's, and my itunes here is all songs that remind me of you. and sitting at my vanity in my old room getting ready tonight reminded me of getting ready for our first date. but i'm going to spend the evening with someone else. it should have been you. i feel so stupid. i feel so sad.
later i will write.
before i drift off to sleep i'll write to keep myself from reaching for you. i write to remember. i sleep to forget.
you aren't there. you'll never be there. do you miss the quiet moments? lights on the water. taking steps and knowing my hand was supposed to hold yours. you made life worth living. i miss who you were when you were in love with me. how could i know you now? you will never be that person to me again. he was really amazing. he knew me and loved me anyway.
forget me now and meet someone else. love her. stuff her into the hole i left but maybe she won't fit in there quite the way i did. and maybe i'll never feel the way i felt with you, when things were good. that instant connection. the way my hand fit in yours. looking at you and knowing that you felt the exact same way, and that i was your world.
i am living my life without you now, and i always will be. it's fun and it's happy. but it's not beautiful.
i have so much love to give, and no one to give it to. it was supposed to be yours.