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On wednesday night Jem decieded to speak to me on msn, it was the first time we have spoke in over a week,
She just said sorry she hasnt been in touch but her phone has been blocked. The conversation was all very civil and nice, untill she started dropping sly little digs in, and it went down hill from there.
Here is our conversation;
fakeFCKRemoveLux Lisbon says:
i told you itd take u like 3 weeks to forget all about me
stephanie? says:
but you're not bothered so it wouldn't matter either way would it?
Lux Lisbon says:
yes because im completely heartless
Lux Lisbon says:
we didnt break up cause i didnt have feeling, we broke up cause i cheated.
stephanie? says:
i knew you had.
Lux Lisbon says:
well there you go
stephanie? says:
why didn't you tell me? when? with who?
Lux Lisbon says:
because it meant nothing
stephanie? says:
erm.well when was it?
Lux Lisbon says:
and seen as you fancied someone else
stephanie? says:
errrrmmm hold on, no i didn't
Lux Lisbon says:
the week after you told me you liked sam
stephanie? says:
you cheated on me and you are turning it round?with who?
Lux Lisbon says:
it was the night you told me you were in bed with a boy, and from that moment i died inside
stephanie? says:
what the fuck?i wasnt in bed with a boy
stephanie? says:
i was sitting on the bed, talking to my friend,who is a boy.what did you do with her?
Lux Lisbon says:
im not going into details
stephanie? says:
ok well did you sleep with her yes or no?
Lux Lisbon says:
obviously
stephanie? says:
and this is my fault?
Lux Lisbon says:
i never said it was
stephanie? says:
so you carried on sleeping with me after this?
thanks.
Lux Lisbon says:
yea im not diseased
stephanie? says:
i cannot believe you didnt have the decency to tell me and after all of that 'i never cheat' shit?
did you even feel bad?
Lux Lisbon says:
i dont and i didnt feel anything
stephanie? says:
well apparently you do
Lux Lisbon says:
thats the first time ever
Lux Lisbon says:
you might as well join the i hate jemma club, all my exes are a part of it apart from jen
stephanie? says:
i don't hate you, hate is a waste of time.
Lux Lisbon says:
lucy wants me dead
stephanie? says:
i don't think she does you know
Lux Lisbon says:
who the fuck?! how the fuck would you know?"
Lux Lisbon says:
dont talk about my business with people
stephanie? says:
i didnt talk about your business Lux Lisbon says:
scene butterfly now arnt we,makes me feel sick
stephanie? says:
i'm hardly a scene butterfly, jem, i just know one of her friends.
Lux Lisbon says:
this is the main reason i ended it
stephanie? says:
i'm sorry, why are you being nasty to me here?
Lux Lisbon says:
cause your so god damned desperate to be part of the scene
stephanie? says:
youve just told me you slept with someone else and now your being nasty to me?
stephanie? says:
no dear, i'm happily far far away from it
Lux Lisbon says:
cause all of a sudden your hunting out people i know
stephanie? says:
like who?
stephanie? says:
oh what the fuck jem
Lux Lisbon says:
and talking about my past which has fuck all to do with you
stephanie? says:
what goes on in your head?
stephanie? says:
its not all about you!
Lux Lisbon says:
then who the fuck have u been talking to that knows lucy?!
Lux Lisbon says:
oh whatever i'll just phone luce
stephanie? says:
ok phone her.
stephanie? says:
whats your problem?
Lux Lisbon says:
i wanna know who youve been talking to that knows luce
stephanie? says:
i havent spoke about your business. i was talking to a girl im friends with who mentioned she knew you through lucyi said you were my ex then i just said i didnt think lucy liked you
stephanie? says:
and she said she didnt know
Lux Lisbon says:
lucys in love with me hense why she hates me
Lux Lisbon says:
she always has been and always will
Lux Lisbon says:
cause unlike you lucy only ever noticed me
stephanie? says:
JEM
stephanie? says:
YOU SLEPT
stephanie? says:
SLEPT
stephanie? says:
WITH SOMEONE ELSE
stephanie? says:
and i am in the wrong here?
Lux Lisbon says:
i fucking wouldnt have though if i thought i was with someone that actually wanted to be with me?!
stephanie? says:
whatever jem
Lux Lisbon says:
because youve been talking to my exes mates
Lux Lisbon says:
just tell me who the fuck it is
Lux Lisbon says:
its better coming from you
stephanie? says:
listen, i wanted to be with you, you obviously didnt want to be with me. but it's over now, and thats ok, your fine, i'm fine. lets just leave it there yeah?
Lux Lisbon says:
ok steph youve started this game with someone you obviously have no fucking idea bout even though we were toegther for 3 months
Lux Lisbon says:
i thought youd have learnt by now im the wrong fucking person to mess with
stephanie? says:
im not messing with you???
Lux Lisbon says:
now youve over stepped your mark
stephanie? says:
what have i done???
Lux Lisbon says:
you start fucking about with people like that and digging for info about lucy and thats it
Lux Lisbon says:
youve started a fucking war
stephanie? says:
what?
Lux Lisbon says:
you stay the fuck away from me
stephanie? says:
i didnt dig for anything?
Lux Lisbon says:
away from my friends
Lux Lisbon says:
and most of all keep the fuck away from lucy
stephanie? says:
what the fuck
Lux Lisbon says:
you have no idea what i can fucking do to your life
Lux Lisbon says:
and you have no idea who fucking pent up with rage i am right now little girl
stephanie? says:
ok
well im very sorry
but i havent done anything wrong
stephanie? says:
so im sorry to upset you
Lux Lisbon says:
it doesnt make a fucking difference
Lux Lisbon says:
boolocks
Lux Lisbon says:
fucking bollocks
Lux Lisbon says:
seriously
Lux Lisbon says:
im so fucking pissed
stephanie? says:
your scaring me
stephanie? says:
i dont know what ive done
Lux Lisbon says:
i fucking should be
Lux Lisbon says:
you know what youve done
stephanie? says:
i dont hate you? i have dont nothing to wrong you?
Lux Lisbon says:
dont talk to people about me
Lux Lisbon says:
and dont you fucking dare try and talk to people about lucy
stephanie? says:
I SAID YOU WERE MY EX!
stephanie? says:
THAT IS ALL
Lux Lisbon says:
you have no idea about her
stephanie? says:
I KNOW!
stephanie? says:
i didnt bring her up!!!!!
stephanie? says:
i asked how she knew you and she said threw lucy
stephanie? says:
THAT WAS IT
stephanie? says:
oh my gosh
Lux Lisbon says:
then just tell me who the fuck youve been talking to
stephanie? says:
will you calm down a little then yeah ok?
Lux Lisbon says:
yes
stephanie? says:
please stop this
Lux Lisbon says:
youve already made me phone luce
stephanie? says:
i dont know what the fuck ive done
stephanie? says:
we werent talking about you
stephanie? says:
or lucy
stephanie? says:
she said she knew you
stephanie? says:
i said you were my ex
stephanie? says:
i asked how she knew you
stephanie? says:
and she said lucy
stephanie? says:
and that was all
stephanie? says:
she didnt say anything bad about you
stephanie? says:
so i assumed lucy didnt hate you afterall
Lux Lisbon says:
i dont care
stephanie? says:
ok, don't then
Lux Lisbon says:
i just want to know who it is
stephanie? says:
i'm gonna go now, i havent done anything wrong and i think you are being really cruel.
Lux Lisbon says:
tell me who it is
Lux Lisbon says:
i just want to know who it is
stephanie? says:
why does it make an ounce of difference?
Lux Lisbon says:
it makes a massive difference just tell me
Lux Lisbon says:
if you dont tell me i'll seriously never ever speak to you ever again
stephanie? says:
ok, aslong as you promise to stop being so cruel
Lux Lisbon says:
then tell me
stephanie? says:
and leave her alone aswell
Lux Lisbon says:
tell me
stephanie? says:
why are you bullying me into this?
Lux Lisbon says:
im not
Lux Lisbon says:
tell me who it is
Lux Lisbon says:
if you ever cared a little about me tell me who it is
stephanie? says:
dont emoitonally blackmail me jem!
stephanie? says:
i would have no problem
Lux Lisbon says:
im not just tell me
stephanie? says:
just let me speak a second
stephanie? says:
please
Lux Lisbon says:
tell me and i'll leave you alone
Lux Lisbon says:
are you not telling me cause your after her?
stephanie? says:
i would happily tell you who it is because there is nothing going on with us or anything, but after you have just flipped out on me like that! what the fuck? you have actually scared the shit out of me. i have done absolutley nothing wrong to you, and you can be like that with me. so what could you be like with someone else?
stephanie? says:
can you understand that?
After this she rang me, and i told her it was jen that said she knew lucy, and she was just like "oh thats ok, jens nice", then changed her mind after a few minutes and started ripping the girl to shreds calling her for all kinds. she told me she'd got with a couple of random girls since me, and asked if i had, and i couldnt lie to her, so i said yes. Then she broke into tears and told me she hadn't really got with anyone, and she hadn't cheated either, so i asked her why she said she had and she said 'i just wanted to have a dig at you, your out having fun and pulling girls and im just sat here lonely, crying'. I couldn't really understand this because she had told me she hadnt loved me since November, so i asked her what the fuck was going on, and she said shes still in love with me but we cant be together now that ive kissed someone else (????) and that she cant speak to me ever again because it hurts too much.
I stayed on the phone to her for a couple of hours just making small talk and consoling her to make sure she was ok. She was going on about how her life is so shit and she cant talk to her friends and she wants to top herself so i was worried.
Understandably, I rang her over the next couple of days to check how she was. She has seemed fine. Then today i get a phonecall from her screaming at me, absolutley screaming because i was out with Jen and her friends Mya and Col on saturday, saying how it was the biggest betrayal and if i ever dare come to manchester again i'll pay for it.
WHAT THE FUCK?
she went on and on about how now im friends with them all her friends hate me? it's like some kind of weird lesbian tribe rivalry or something. Of which i was completely unaware of, so i think it's unfair that i am being spoken to so shitty for this. She was calling me all kinds, and it hurt, but not as much as it should have. She said i am dead to her and dont i dare come near her or her friends ever again.
I told jen some of this, she was equally as confused.
I just don't get it. I really don't.~