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So yesterday i rang Jem, she was busy having lots of fun so i told her to ring me later. Then i got really upset missing her and was all grouchy with my parents, which triggered the biggest fight with my mum ever.
Neither of them are now speaking to me, which is fucking shit because i have so much on i NEED their support. I got stupidly upset after that because of what my mum said to me, and of course because i still had Jem in my head. So i rang her. again. She asked what had happened and i explained and then she was like "Oh i thought something important had happened. i gotta go steph".
What is important to her? Is it not important that i lay in bed for an entire day because i feel so shit?
Last week some bitch she knows told her i was involved with someone else (not true), when she found out she flipped and was like "i don't want to speak to you anymore, we can't be friends, don't ring me"
She took it all back when she found out it wasn't true, but i just don't get it? she doesn't want to be with me, but she doesn't want anyone else to be with me either?
It is valentines day today, i feel like topping myself. It has been three weeks, why is this pain not getting any less intense?
I want so desperatley to be able to wake up in the morning and think about the day ahead. But no, it's all about her, every fucking second.
Neither of them are now speaking to me, which is fucking shit because i have so much on i NEED their support. I got stupidly upset after that because of what my mum said to me, and of course because i still had Jem in my head. So i rang her. again. She asked what had happened and i explained and then she was like "Oh i thought something important had happened. i gotta go steph".
What is important to her? Is it not important that i lay in bed for an entire day because i feel so shit?
Last week some bitch she knows told her i was involved with someone else (not true), when she found out she flipped and was like "i don't want to speak to you anymore, we can't be friends, don't ring me"
She took it all back when she found out it wasn't true, but i just don't get it? she doesn't want to be with me, but she doesn't want anyone else to be with me either?
It is valentines day today, i feel like topping myself. It has been three weeks, why is this pain not getting any less intense?
I want so desperatley to be able to wake up in the morning and think about the day ahead. But no, it's all about her, every fucking second.