this entry is everywhere.
LOL. please, don't make me piss myself.
i haven't updated in forever- obviously. it's been saying "happy birthday steph" for days. i don't know if i'm feeling the whole livejournal thing anymore. i never have the time to write in it. we'll see how much longer this lasts. and yeah the layout is ruined. idc.
i stayed home today cause for seem reason yesterday something got to me. i don't know what happened or what exactly set me off but i feel absolutely horrible. in pain and mad things going through my mind. perfect. just what i needed. haha ahhhnah. other than that life has been good. whenever someone says "life sucks" i came to the conclusion that maybe-juuuust maybe-it's the people in it. i don't know. just a thought.
you can't get mad at life. life is just like the word "the". it really can't be described. it's what you do to yourself that makes you think your life absolutely sucks. maybe i'm not making sense. i'm trying to put this all into words but it's kinda hard. don't ask me why i started thinking about this cause honestly i do not know. i read something and i had this are-you-fucking-kidding-me feeling. people just seem to amaze me. some are perfectly perfect and some are just perfectly fucked up- so bad that they even fake shit to theirselves.
i can't understand. exactly what am i feeling? why am i feeling this way? and when is this feeling going to end?
about the boy i've been holding hands with- chris. he's not even my boyfriend but he's absolutely amazing. i've never been so happy. he's someone that you can be "in like with" and still have him as your best friend. someone that made me realize a little important thing in life... and i don't want to let that go.