the ups and downs of life.
i'm still a lover of life and i really don't know why. it's great and all but when life throws you little heartbreaks every once in a while it gets lame. alright alright yeah i understand it would be mad boring if nothing like this happened buuuuut it's been happening way too much lately.
i went to the doctors today and i was there for about an hour. i'm sitting here getting all frustrated. yeahyyeah i'm telling him everything and he asks if i got my period last month and without realizing what i was saying i said "no, it's late. i don't know where it is." he just gives me this look and i didn't catch on til later that HEY BRIELLE don't say that cause with your symptoms and then saying that he's gonna think you're pregnant. so he came to the conclusion that i was pregnant. he asks "is there any way that maybe you could be pregnant?" ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh god no. then he started asking questions and i'm like nahhh dude chilllllllll. so i'm on medication for something totally different than what was really bothering me. ha. lame dude. i've been eating a bit here and there and i'm not getting sick as much so i'm happy. :D
yeah i'm pretty ecstatic with the fact that i've been feeling so much better. 4 out of 5 kids who just read that is now singing blue. and it's catchy. my apologies. :P i miss everyone at school and i especially miss his face.<3
saturday night. awesome night. i love almost each and every one of you. so dude. the ones i don't really love should really shut their mouth. ;) nothing happened between kevin and i. and i don't care what nicky does-literally. we have not "been together" for months now. stop making hebetudinous assumptions.
but anyway. my best guy friend. alex. is basically forced to move to florida. i was completely hysterical last night and i still don't know what i'm going to do. no more late night cuddles so i can stop crying-usually about boys, no more of him saying "brielle. he's a faggot. you like all douche bags. now _________ is an awesome kid and he'd be good for you.", no more of our kind of conversations in person, just no more of my alex hugs. :( i'm gonna be taking it harder when saturday comes. fuuuuuuck what am i going to do. my best friend is leaving. and apparently when he's down there he can't talk to anybody from here. ok so that's just fucking killing me. everybody is saying i'll be ok. and eventually i will. just at the moment i do not know how to handle it and i just don't know what to even think. he's going to be the brightest star in my sky always and no one is ever going to take his place. but when am i able to see him again? :( jkfhjkghdsjkhdsgjdsgjkhds damn...
hspa's tomorrow. what the shit. =/
i went to the doctors today and i was there for about an hour. i'm sitting here getting all frustrated. yeahyyeah i'm telling him everything and he asks if i got my period last month and without realizing what i was saying i said "no, it's late. i don't know where it is." he just gives me this look and i didn't catch on til later that HEY BRIELLE don't say that cause with your symptoms and then saying that he's gonna think you're pregnant. so he came to the conclusion that i was pregnant. he asks "is there any way that maybe you could be pregnant?" ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh god no. then he started asking questions and i'm like nahhh dude chilllllllll. so i'm on medication for something totally different than what was really bothering me. ha. lame dude. i've been eating a bit here and there and i'm not getting sick as much so i'm happy. :D
yeah i'm pretty ecstatic with the fact that i've been feeling so much better. 4 out of 5 kids who just read that is now singing blue. and it's catchy. my apologies. :P i miss everyone at school and i especially miss his face.<3
saturday night. awesome night. i love almost each and every one of you. so dude. the ones i don't really love should really shut their mouth. ;) nothing happened between kevin and i. and i don't care what nicky does-literally. we have not "been together" for months now. stop making hebetudinous assumptions.
but anyway. my best guy friend. alex. is basically forced to move to florida. i was completely hysterical last night and i still don't know what i'm going to do. no more late night cuddles so i can stop crying-usually about boys, no more of him saying "brielle. he's a faggot. you like all douche bags. now _________ is an awesome kid and he'd be good for you.", no more of our kind of conversations in person, just no more of my alex hugs. :( i'm gonna be taking it harder when saturday comes. fuuuuuuck what am i going to do. my best friend is leaving. and apparently when he's down there he can't talk to anybody from here. ok so that's just fucking killing me. everybody is saying i'll be ok. and eventually i will. just at the moment i do not know how to handle it and i just don't know what to even think. he's going to be the brightest star in my sky always and no one is ever going to take his place. but when am i able to see him again? :( jkfhjkghdsjkhdsgjdsgjkhds damn...
hspa's tomorrow. what the shit. =/