The End to Matt ....
Lol so I'm just going to paste in here what I e-mailed to my friend cuz it basically sums up everything even though some things might be repeated from an earlier post!! Have fun!
Lately I've been a bit bipolar... and by that I mean completely depressed one day over absolutely nothing and then the next perfectly fine and I guess it has a lot do with me liking this boy that I did... I hope it doesn’t offend you that I am talking about this but its really important to me and I really wanted to talk to you about it lately but have kind of been avoiding it because I didn’t want to make you sad... or upset (although I'm not sure that you would even mind, again its just me, better safe than sorry) but finally I have to give in and just tell you... So there was this guy that I liked and he seemed really awesome at first...and so we hung out a little and then finally I gave in and told him I liked him figuring that he would let me know whether he liked me or didn’t... So he writes me a note and pretty much said he had the same feelings I had and so I though wow this is great but he said he didn’t want a g/f till he knew someone a lot (and by the way this guys name is matt) and so that was fine and kinda felt the same way... because of some things that have happened to me before and so we kinda did the whole exchanging notes ordeal and recently he hasn’t given me any and there are just subtle things that give me the hint that this is definitely not going to work out...Like as soon as our classes changed (3 trimester) I never ever see him, which is kinda a big thumbs down to any relationship ... and I was like okay I can deal... and oh goodness this is a long story and well ultimately I just feel like he doesn’t like me and I guess that’s hard for me to accept well because I don’t really think that there is a guy that I have showed interest that hasn’t liked me back and I guess that makes me spoiled and now I am getting hit In the face for it... The thing is is that I don’t really feel like he ever liked me liked me but its really hard to tell because he is one of those ppl who don't show emotion and I feel like he lied to me because a long while back he had hinted to me about going to the sadie hawkins and I said I didn’t want to go cuz it was a dress up like a decade and I primarily didn’t want to go because of that and second I didn’t want to go because it was a dance and Im not that into dances so he tells me that he doesn’t like dances either...and so like 2 weeks ago I found out he was going to prom which just so happens to be the biggest dance of the year and I just cant quite figure out why he told me he didn’t like dances if he is going to prom... but then I realized if a junior or someone asked me I would prolly go, depending on how much I knew them/liked them....So I guess I kinda brushed that off and so then I found out that he has all theses little freshman girls that worship the ground he walks on (he is a freshman but 16 don’t ask) and have their own fan club for him. That kinda made me sick... and then he is just really well how do you say arrogant...He used to have really nice hair and now he cut it but he is still kind of stuck -up I mean this guy thinks he's hot... And that about the 2'nd biggest turn off to me and so I really dunno if I wanna be his friend anymore/ let alone like him because he seems to be such a follower... like he seems to agree with whatever I say and tell me what I want to here just to be polite which certainly isnt good either.... so I've now come to realize he gets on my nerves despite his some-what good qualities... I'm getting really frusterated with him and I dunno whether I should still be his friend or be like, " matt don't talk to me ever" (not that he really initiated the conversation in the first place) I still in a weird way like him but don't know why... I don’t know if its just Im on the everlasting search for love or there is actually something I like about him... I just don’t want to hang on liking him when he could more or less give a crap about me.....ya know???
Lately I've been a bit bipolar... and by that I mean completely depressed one day over absolutely nothing and then the next perfectly fine and I guess it has a lot do with me liking this boy that I did... I hope it doesn’t offend you that I am talking about this but its really important to me and I really wanted to talk to you about it lately but have kind of been avoiding it because I didn’t want to make you sad... or upset (although I'm not sure that you would even mind, again its just me, better safe than sorry) but finally I have to give in and just tell you... So there was this guy that I liked and he seemed really awesome at first...and so we hung out a little and then finally I gave in and told him I liked him figuring that he would let me know whether he liked me or didn’t... So he writes me a note and pretty much said he had the same feelings I had and so I though wow this is great but he said he didn’t want a g/f till he knew someone a lot (and by the way this guys name is matt) and so that was fine and kinda felt the same way... because of some things that have happened to me before and so we kinda did the whole exchanging notes ordeal and recently he hasn’t given me any and there are just subtle things that give me the hint that this is definitely not going to work out...Like as soon as our classes changed (3 trimester) I never ever see him, which is kinda a big thumbs down to any relationship ... and I was like okay I can deal... and oh goodness this is a long story and well ultimately I just feel like he doesn’t like me and I guess that’s hard for me to accept well because I don’t really think that there is a guy that I have showed interest that hasn’t liked me back and I guess that makes me spoiled and now I am getting hit In the face for it... The thing is is that I don’t really feel like he ever liked me liked me but its really hard to tell because he is one of those ppl who don't show emotion and I feel like he lied to me because a long while back he had hinted to me about going to the sadie hawkins and I said I didn’t want to go cuz it was a dress up like a decade and I primarily didn’t want to go because of that and second I didn’t want to go because it was a dance and Im not that into dances so he tells me that he doesn’t like dances either...and so like 2 weeks ago I found out he was going to prom which just so happens to be the biggest dance of the year and I just cant quite figure out why he told me he didn’t like dances if he is going to prom... but then I realized if a junior or someone asked me I would prolly go, depending on how much I knew them/liked them....So I guess I kinda brushed that off and so then I found out that he has all theses little freshman girls that worship the ground he walks on (he is a freshman but 16 don’t ask) and have their own fan club for him. That kinda made me sick... and then he is just really well how do you say arrogant...He used to have really nice hair and now he cut it but he is still kind of stuck -up I mean this guy thinks he's hot... And that about the 2'nd biggest turn off to me and so I really dunno if I wanna be his friend anymore/ let alone like him because he seems to be such a follower... like he seems to agree with whatever I say and tell me what I want to here just to be polite which certainly isnt good either.... so I've now come to realize he gets on my nerves despite his some-what good qualities... I'm getting really frusterated with him and I dunno whether I should still be his friend or be like, " matt don't talk to me ever" (not that he really initiated the conversation in the first place) I still in a weird way like him but don't know why... I don’t know if its just Im on the everlasting search for love or there is actually something I like about him... I just don’t want to hang on liking him when he could more or less give a crap about me.....ya know???