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We Lived in the same house
Drank the same wine
A long time ago
when my heart was so empty
couldn't bare to be there
Before we both moved somewhere else

Somehow I let you convince me
Your pining for me had sincerity

I lied to myself so blatantly
Knew the person you thought I was
All those years ago
Had no veracity

I knew

I was a fantasy

But I loved you so much that I let you
find yourself within me.

And you’d tell me how you’d watched me
Wanted me
Before I was able to see

but the person you saw was
just a fantasy
I was
so quiet
that you
could make me into anyone you wanted

and it killed me
knowing that
I wasnt that person
who
you lied into being

and I knew
I saw this person standing
Where I was supposed to be
I heard her saying things
I would never say
So polite and contained
She was nothing like me

But I couldn’t contain
How much I loved
The way you said things
To the person that you wanted me to be

I wanted to be her
i needed to be her
So that I didn’t feel so alone
I Lied to myself
So that I could condone
Your vision of me
I didn’t want to feel so alone
So I let you make me into someone
someone lovable
i just wanted you to love me.