so its been awhile - edit 2
one, i thought was a monster
who i masochistically wanted to study
he exhibited a quiet almost shy quality
i wondered if i had imprinted that new identity on him
or if i had stumbled upon something beautiful and human
the scared boy took off the cloak and dagger of
fake drunken sleazy impersonations
or
an identity
that he hid behind
and this new creature suddenly spoke so clearly through
quiet music,
and empty walls
as if they were afraid of saying
something that could be critiqued and disliked.
and i wondered if i was staring at something i had created or discovered
that im strangely attracted to.
the other i know very well and loved deeply nd fucked up being drunk and rude and mean ( a common theme that i recently uncovered as being a prejudice against all men of being nefarious evil doers trying to steal my pride... something that as a woman i have worked for prized and honered. )
and i thought my future with new york was dead and buried......
things have been pretty stagnant boring and drama-less for awhile so this is... epic pretentious and true to form.. crazy and embarrassing
who i masochistically wanted to study
he exhibited a quiet almost shy quality
i wondered if i had imprinted that new identity on him
or if i had stumbled upon something beautiful and human
the scared boy took off the cloak and dagger of
fake drunken sleazy impersonations
or
an identity
that he hid behind
and this new creature suddenly spoke so clearly through
quiet music,
and empty walls
as if they were afraid of saying
something that could be critiqued and disliked.
and i wondered if i was staring at something i had created or discovered
that im strangely attracted to.
the other i know very well and loved deeply nd fucked up being drunk and rude and mean ( a common theme that i recently uncovered as being a prejudice against all men of being nefarious evil doers trying to steal my pride... something that as a woman i have worked for prized and honered. )
and i thought my future with new york was dead and buried......
things have been pretty stagnant boring and drama-less for awhile so this is... epic pretentious and true to form.. crazy and embarrassing