dreams making memories

[bonified]

dreams about you
times without you
didnt care
at least i was living aware
you were
so fake and so complacent
with a lifestyle
i could never contemplate

numbers your specialty
in a lifestyle of frivolty
i wasn't aware
of your lack
of true contemplation

given space
to
how could i
have been so blank
so vacant
so unaware of the past
you were so bare
so fake
had nothing to give
anyone
how could i not remember
the times
from so far away
i looked at the stars so long
how could i not see the resemblance
it had been so long
but you stayed the same
takes so long for light to get home
you broke something you could never replace

i'll never look at your face the same
changed over time
when you left to make a mark
i couldn't face
so far
so long
i hope you found home
but you'll never be home to me
anymore