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I really could have done better at this whole school thing this semester. I took 7 units (out of 15) for a grade. The ones I took P/NP, I flaked on, though, weirdly, they were the classes I probably enjoyed the most.
However, I guess that is only comparative to the two classes I am taking for a grade:
Linear Programming: my first IEOR class. I thought maybe I was just behind on the way of engineering thinking. Then I realized the professor was not a good one. Now, I am playing catch up on everything in the class, learning everything. I have never felt so helplessly behind before.
Bioethics: The professor--excuse me, associate professor--oh woah, sorry assistant professor--has some kind of authority complex. Even amongst condescending and brilliant professors, I have never felt like more of an unequal. First off, since I don't think he is particularly brilliant, he does not inspire me with respect for him. Also, he demands a helluva lot more respect from his students than he gives to any of them (such as forcing each student to answer questions he poses, then shrugs them off like they didn't say anything, or keeping students' questions from being answered because of his strict no collaboration policy. shit, this is BIOETHICS. the whole subject is based on discussion and multiple points of view. it's not a math class with one right answer!). While it was a relief to fill up his teacher evaluation (I still didn't get to write everything I wanted), the final essays are still hanging over my head. I would love nothing more than to get them over with, but...
I have all my finals on one day, Tuesday. Well, I have two finals and the Bioethics essays due. Which is still overwhelming. There is this great big ball of proofs, tableaus, shadow prices, oncomice (sp?), and technocrats CAREENING toward my face, to topple me, my grades, my position to get into ORMS, my fate of loving or hating my academic life.
Yea, I might be inflating this a little. But finals always have that do or die quality to them.
I also just found out about this internship opportunity at B of A in SF for this summer. I don't know whether I should apply, since I am signed up for summer classes. It's 40 hours per week, competitive pay, 10-12 weeks, and all about Risk Capital and Portfolio Analysis (basically, a good foot in the door for what I would like to do later on). It could wait until next summer, but should I wait?
However, I guess that is only comparative to the two classes I am taking for a grade:
Linear Programming: my first IEOR class. I thought maybe I was just behind on the way of engineering thinking. Then I realized the professor was not a good one. Now, I am playing catch up on everything in the class, learning everything. I have never felt so helplessly behind before.
Bioethics: The professor--excuse me, associate professor--oh woah, sorry assistant professor--has some kind of authority complex. Even amongst condescending and brilliant professors, I have never felt like more of an unequal. First off, since I don't think he is particularly brilliant, he does not inspire me with respect for him. Also, he demands a helluva lot more respect from his students than he gives to any of them (such as forcing each student to answer questions he poses, then shrugs them off like they didn't say anything, or keeping students' questions from being answered because of his strict no collaboration policy. shit, this is BIOETHICS. the whole subject is based on discussion and multiple points of view. it's not a math class with one right answer!). While it was a relief to fill up his teacher evaluation (I still didn't get to write everything I wanted), the final essays are still hanging over my head. I would love nothing more than to get them over with, but...
I have all my finals on one day, Tuesday. Well, I have two finals and the Bioethics essays due. Which is still overwhelming. There is this great big ball of proofs, tableaus, shadow prices, oncomice (sp?), and technocrats CAREENING toward my face, to topple me, my grades, my position to get into ORMS, my fate of loving or hating my academic life.
Yea, I might be inflating this a little. But finals always have that do or die quality to them.
I also just found out about this internship opportunity at B of A in SF for this summer. I don't know whether I should apply, since I am signed up for summer classes. It's 40 hours per week, competitive pay, 10-12 weeks, and all about Risk Capital and Portfolio Analysis (basically, a good foot in the door for what I would like to do later on). It could wait until next summer, but should I wait?