Everything has gone to shit
Yup, it has. Today has sucked more than any previous day in my memory. So much shit has hit the fan, that its stopped working all together. Let me explain.
1)- I have an F in Ancient Rome. My fault for not taking the last test, and for having a shitty exam grade.(most likely, since I didn't check what I got on the exam.)
2)- After having good grades in French all year, I get an e-mail from the professor saying that I failed to inform him about the status of my computer lab assignments, and therefore did not fulfill the course requirements and have failed French.(I wrote an e-mail back explaining, but I'm probably still fucked)
3)- My fucking Phone was confiscated. Yes it happened finally, but guess what? They didn't catch me with it, they caught someone else using it and the fuckers won't gibe it back until I talk to Levenson, and that in itself is really gay.
4)- I'm on fucking guard, all week. My nest shift is tonight at 2 am.
5)- I'm finacially fucked more than ever now. The guy that was supposed to give me the 300 dollars for the faggoty ass bank debt can't come up with the money because his transmission is fucked. The money is due sunday or monday.
6)- James needs his cash this weekend.
7)- I still don't know what the fuck is up with my suspension, but I'm supposed to go talk to someone tomorrow morning and I'm guessing they'll tell me.
I'm sure theres more, but I don't want to think about it anymore.
What does this all mean? Well, basically, i have to tell parents about money problems in the morning and the grades, and the phone, and everything else. They will hate me even more than ever, and I will have proved my worthlesness.
And what is the reason behind all my woes? drugs. When it comes down to it, my debt to both james and the bank come from buying drugs. My pending suspension is mainly due to not going to class, because I slepts through it because I stayed up all night before on adderall. My grades suck for a similar reason.
I hate all of this. I hate myself. I can't believe just how fucking stupid I've been this year. I don't know whats going to happen, but I feel like a fucking loser more than ever. I wish I could just get the fuck out of here. I've allowed for this to get out of hand because i just stopped caring about everything. Am I just a moron? Have I no grasp on what I was doing and what it lead to? I need to pray. I know that God can help me deal with this.
1)- I have an F in Ancient Rome. My fault for not taking the last test, and for having a shitty exam grade.(most likely, since I didn't check what I got on the exam.)
2)- After having good grades in French all year, I get an e-mail from the professor saying that I failed to inform him about the status of my computer lab assignments, and therefore did not fulfill the course requirements and have failed French.(I wrote an e-mail back explaining, but I'm probably still fucked)
3)- My fucking Phone was confiscated. Yes it happened finally, but guess what? They didn't catch me with it, they caught someone else using it and the fuckers won't gibe it back until I talk to Levenson, and that in itself is really gay.
4)- I'm on fucking guard, all week. My nest shift is tonight at 2 am.
5)- I'm finacially fucked more than ever now. The guy that was supposed to give me the 300 dollars for the faggoty ass bank debt can't come up with the money because his transmission is fucked. The money is due sunday or monday.
6)- James needs his cash this weekend.
7)- I still don't know what the fuck is up with my suspension, but I'm supposed to go talk to someone tomorrow morning and I'm guessing they'll tell me.
I'm sure theres more, but I don't want to think about it anymore.
What does this all mean? Well, basically, i have to tell parents about money problems in the morning and the grades, and the phone, and everything else. They will hate me even more than ever, and I will have proved my worthlesness.
And what is the reason behind all my woes? drugs. When it comes down to it, my debt to both james and the bank come from buying drugs. My pending suspension is mainly due to not going to class, because I slepts through it because I stayed up all night before on adderall. My grades suck for a similar reason.
I hate all of this. I hate myself. I can't believe just how fucking stupid I've been this year. I don't know whats going to happen, but I feel like a fucking loser more than ever. I wish I could just get the fuck out of here. I've allowed for this to get out of hand because i just stopped caring about everything. Am I just a moron? Have I no grasp on what I was doing and what it lead to? I need to pray. I know that God can help me deal with this.