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so...we'll be friends,
he has his new shoes,
i have my new dress.
i dont know if this will work for sure. i need to be thinner, i decided, i wont start up with some obsessive thing, when im in my house, i will run and not walk, this will be my first commitment.
I dont want to leave my house today. i feel like being sick, i feel like i had a huge party yesterday, and now i have a hangover. Thats because i was happy yesterday. i ache. its awfull. maybe not. im pissed off. maybe not. im hungry. maybe not. i cant sleep, so i wake up at ridiculous hours.
Last night i had a horrible dream. That Eleanor was doing that idiotic thing where she snatches and is like 'give me that' It was only this red lip gloss that kelly brought heather but i didnt want her to have it. so when she went to snatch it, i dug my nails into her hands and they were like razor blades and i said 'Eleanor, just get the fuck away from me' but she didnt so i started hitting her but it just felt like i was punching walls and it wasnt hurting her. so i sat down and started kicking her and that worked and she ran out of reception.
I went into the art room and we had to watch a sad cartoon about husky dogs, and that was it. i woke up, and i was genuinely shocked.
he has his new shoes,
i have my new dress.
i dont know if this will work for sure. i need to be thinner, i decided, i wont start up with some obsessive thing, when im in my house, i will run and not walk, this will be my first commitment.
I dont want to leave my house today. i feel like being sick, i feel like i had a huge party yesterday, and now i have a hangover. Thats because i was happy yesterday. i ache. its awfull. maybe not. im pissed off. maybe not. im hungry. maybe not. i cant sleep, so i wake up at ridiculous hours.
Last night i had a horrible dream. That Eleanor was doing that idiotic thing where she snatches and is like 'give me that' It was only this red lip gloss that kelly brought heather but i didnt want her to have it. so when she went to snatch it, i dug my nails into her hands and they were like razor blades and i said 'Eleanor, just get the fuck away from me' but she didnt so i started hitting her but it just felt like i was punching walls and it wasnt hurting her. so i sat down and started kicking her and that worked and she ran out of reception.
I went into the art room and we had to watch a sad cartoon about husky dogs, and that was it. i woke up, and i was genuinely shocked.