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I feel like nothing but a fat, fucking faliure. I have only done like 20mins of step-aerobics and 10mins Hatha Yoga and thats it. I just feel so drained and low. Not depressed as such but low and empty. I am too scared to weigh myself and just feeel like a total, utterly faliure. I will never to my target weight, not like this. I am not the smart one, the pretty one or the thin one. So, who am i? The fat one of course! I dont think it matters anyway, everyone ignores me anyway. I just need to do something. They will all notice me when i am thin. I'd but money on it. I just cant get rid of this feeling, i just feel so dirty, so guilty and now i am sat here with chili pasta and really want eat it.