The end is nigh
So, long time no update, dammit! I also haven't been that hot on checking my friends list so I'll try and catch up on that sometime. Yes, I have the busiest and yet at the same time the laziest life here.
I'm leaving Lancaster next Sunday for the summer. This is making me feel gloomy because I've had a really great year and next year it won't be the same, not being in halls. It'll be great in different ways but ... well the first year of uni has gone by so quickly! Gone, gone, gone! :( Okay so I'm also feeling gloomy at the thought of having to get a full time job over the sweet summer months, but the missing Lancaster and student life bit outweighs the 'ack, I have to work' feeling.
I had my hair cut the other day! It's a lot shorter. The shortest I've ever had it. And the curly wisps you may have glimpsed in photos I posted up here? Well, they're gone, or straightened. Because my hair is so wavy naturally I have to keep it straight pretty much all the time. Well, the fringe is the most important bit, but the rest of it looks better straight.
And where would my life be without boy drama? The current specimen is someone I really *shouldn't* be too annoyed over, but I am anyway: the outgoing SCAN features editor who is a third year and therefore leaving. Ginger, freckled, totally hot, and a total player from what I can tell. Still, we got together for an evening last Monday and since then he's been on my mind a lot. Get out of my head, dammit! Thinking of him mixes satisfaction at finally having got somewhere with him and annoyance at the fact that there are no prospects *whatsoever*. Not that it matters. My life isn't ruled by boys. Right? Right. It's not. I am happy being single. It's just ... well, it's so nice having someone there who kisses your forehead and makes you shiver all over because you are so into them. It's nice having intimacy with someone, and I'm not even just talking about the physical kind. Having someone there who you love (er, not that I'm talking about the guy from last Monday here at all, I'm speaking generally, just to clarify) and who you care deeply about and who reciprocates that is so satisfying. I know that friendship provides that ... but I think you get a different sort of intimacy with someone like that. From the few times when I've been close to someone like that, I enjoy it, and end up missing it.
So no, I'm not obsessing right now over it. I'm not letting relationships with boys rule my life. I'm just sort of missing that aspect of life, and wondering when it will be in my life again.
Um, I said that this post would be something artistic. I haven't quite got there yet. Although I could post some stuff later. :-/
Yeah, might do more updating later. For now I'm just going to think about what film I'm going to watch later on.
I'm leaving Lancaster next Sunday for the summer. This is making me feel gloomy because I've had a really great year and next year it won't be the same, not being in halls. It'll be great in different ways but ... well the first year of uni has gone by so quickly! Gone, gone, gone! :( Okay so I'm also feeling gloomy at the thought of having to get a full time job over the sweet summer months, but the missing Lancaster and student life bit outweighs the 'ack, I have to work' feeling.
I had my hair cut the other day! It's a lot shorter. The shortest I've ever had it. And the curly wisps you may have glimpsed in photos I posted up here? Well, they're gone, or straightened. Because my hair is so wavy naturally I have to keep it straight pretty much all the time. Well, the fringe is the most important bit, but the rest of it looks better straight.
And where would my life be without boy drama? The current specimen is someone I really *shouldn't* be too annoyed over, but I am anyway: the outgoing SCAN features editor who is a third year and therefore leaving. Ginger, freckled, totally hot, and a total player from what I can tell. Still, we got together for an evening last Monday and since then he's been on my mind a lot. Get out of my head, dammit! Thinking of him mixes satisfaction at finally having got somewhere with him and annoyance at the fact that there are no prospects *whatsoever*. Not that it matters. My life isn't ruled by boys. Right? Right. It's not. I am happy being single. It's just ... well, it's so nice having someone there who kisses your forehead and makes you shiver all over because you are so into them. It's nice having intimacy with someone, and I'm not even just talking about the physical kind. Having someone there who you love (er, not that I'm talking about the guy from last Monday here at all, I'm speaking generally, just to clarify) and who you care deeply about and who reciprocates that is so satisfying. I know that friendship provides that ... but I think you get a different sort of intimacy with someone like that. From the few times when I've been close to someone like that, I enjoy it, and end up missing it.
So no, I'm not obsessing right now over it. I'm not letting relationships with boys rule my life. I'm just sort of missing that aspect of life, and wondering when it will be in my life again.
Um, I said that this post would be something artistic. I haven't quite got there yet. Although I could post some stuff later. :-/
Yeah, might do more updating later. For now I'm just going to think about what film I'm going to watch later on.