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I feel slightly melancholy and homesick tonight. I feel like letting myself fall back into thoughts about Grahame again, when I've been slowly climbing out of that pitfall these last few weeks ... I just want to brood, and think about him. That's not good.
I got frustrated with Marianna earlier. She was just sitting here using my computer checking her e-mail and barely saying a word to me ... and all she said was pretty much monosyllabic stuff. I asked her if she was okay and she said 'yeah, why?' and I said 'you're just a bit quieter than normal' and she replied that she was just checking her e-mail.
Yeah okay. I just wanted to talk to you is all, and not feel like I was in the company of a brick wall. For a few wild moments I wondered if she would notice if I just took my penknife and cut my arm with it. I don't know why I thought that.
I might go home this Thursday. I really miss my family again, especially after these last couple of days. I did talk to Heather for ages though, which was really cool. She's so nice and easy going. We were talking about music and stuff, she was looking through my CD collection and I was playing random tracks when I found something she'd like. That was cool.
Now I should really get ready for bed, because I'm going to get up early tomorrow so I can do some work. Hmm. Few more tracks I want to listen to before I go though ... might listen to Moonlight Sonata again. It's so beautiful. And a few others.
I got frustrated with Marianna earlier. She was just sitting here using my computer checking her e-mail and barely saying a word to me ... and all she said was pretty much monosyllabic stuff. I asked her if she was okay and she said 'yeah, why?' and I said 'you're just a bit quieter than normal' and she replied that she was just checking her e-mail.
Yeah okay. I just wanted to talk to you is all, and not feel like I was in the company of a brick wall. For a few wild moments I wondered if she would notice if I just took my penknife and cut my arm with it. I don't know why I thought that.
I might go home this Thursday. I really miss my family again, especially after these last couple of days. I did talk to Heather for ages though, which was really cool. She's so nice and easy going. We were talking about music and stuff, she was looking through my CD collection and I was playing random tracks when I found something she'd like. That was cool.
Now I should really get ready for bed, because I'm going to get up early tomorrow so I can do some work. Hmm. Few more tracks I want to listen to before I go though ... might listen to Moonlight Sonata again. It's so beautiful. And a few others.