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I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
I'm still here
You've seen the ashes in my heart
You smile the widest when I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I try to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be
CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
Maybe tonight it's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today it's gonna be okay
I will remember
I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
The lights go out the bridges burn
Once you go you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say
I'd be the one to run away
But I'm still here
I'm still here
So it all came out last nightI told my aunt. Which means that my grandparents know and so will my aunts and uncles in the next 24-48 hours. The troops will be sending in their 2 cents through email and written letter and phone calls soon. No family support except that of the church family. At least not from my mothers side. my fathers side of the family doesnt know yet. my grandmother jean with be something releived that for at least one year she wont have to worry about spending her anual 20 dollars on me for birthday/ christmas present. Papa will be happy for me. that man always is. no one ever talks to him. it must be horrid being hated by your own wife. he will prolly help me fiscally. as for those aunts and uncles... i dont know how they will take it they dont care much ive been the black sheep. im the weird one that i just otn get along with them so I say eff it they dont need to know.
ruby~
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
I'm still here
You've seen the ashes in my heart
You smile the widest when I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I try to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be
CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
Maybe tonight it's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today it's gonna be okay
I will remember
I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive
CHORUS:
The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
The lights go out the bridges burn
Once you go you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say
I'd be the one to run away
But I'm still here
I'm still here
So it all came out last nightI told my aunt. Which means that my grandparents know and so will my aunts and uncles in the next 24-48 hours. The troops will be sending in their 2 cents through email and written letter and phone calls soon. No family support except that of the church family. At least not from my mothers side. my fathers side of the family doesnt know yet. my grandmother jean with be something releived that for at least one year she wont have to worry about spending her anual 20 dollars on me for birthday/ christmas present. Papa will be happy for me. that man always is. no one ever talks to him. it must be horrid being hated by your own wife. he will prolly help me fiscally. as for those aunts and uncles... i dont know how they will take it they dont care much ive been the black sheep. im the weird one that i just otn get along with them so I say eff it they dont need to know.
ruby~