Not sure if youll read but I could use the help

[bonesnjoints]

What are we all fighting for any more? Honestly you guys! its like we keep fighting for freedom and when we get it we just want to go back to being controlled. what is wrong with us? are we really all that fucked up

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[plain_girl]

rubi
hun the people that think of youas a slut are just jelous of you because you are a young beautiful talented girl who has christ on her side which makes you even more radiant. i think we need to have another rubi ashley talk i know ive been confused lately ad it sounds like you need to vent ... i know what its like to be called a slut but i bet you anything the ppl that started saying you were a slut weret he ppl that you thought you could trust may call them "fair weather friends"
i want you to know that personally i have always looked up to you .. im not going to get into why bc that would be a long comment ... but i want you to know that if there are ppl that are bring you down be strong let em go ...... you have so many ppl that are behind you on everything (like me) and that are willing to do anything for you ...
and as far as brad goes. whoe ver said that comment they were right he was sooo stupid for letting oyu go.. bc you are growing into a beautiful woman of christ abnd you will find a man of christ and brad will wish that he wa that man when he's sitting there watching u in church adn youre not selling your self short , youre giving youre self to god and you two may not be equaly yoaked bc you will have exceeded.. bc god says you can
rubi i love ya hun and i want you to be happy if there is anything i can do let me know ..

[bonesnjoints]

man your verbous arent yah lol jp. thank you oodles for the note. maybe I just am letting it get to me cause i feel like a slut because I did do it. as for fair weather friends that is what I have seemed ot have had all this time and I dont know I suck at friendships and what not and I hate it it just want some one who understands me and understand that i cant go out all the time so staying in a doing nothing is more fun for me anyway. some one who just GETS ME. and that is what these two people were. but thats gone. As for admiration Its funny when people say they admire me cause I am so confused as to WHY. I mean what is it that I have in me that people can look up to? I mean honestly? Brad used to say that I was always there for him through thick and thin maybe i shoudl do that for him even if he cant do that for me? I know that I am with the lord and I sadly have aHUGE CRUSH ON THIS GUY AT YOUTH GROUP AND WHAT NOT ANDS IT SNOT ANDREW. :O go me LOL I love you ash we do need another talk, :)
Ruby