.... time #84754 i lied about not posting another emotional entry
i tried to update but i dont even know what to say anymore. shit just happens to me in bunches and in the last week my summer has been all but ruined. friends are gone, the car is gone, baseball is gone and everything else seems to come with a catch and a hassle, or just not at all.
when i had car i was willing to drive everyone everywhere, now that its gone, im not worth the trip
i would have done anything for my coach, but the last thing i thought he would ask of me is not to come back. what happened to the loyalty and 'character' you taught me? it all got shit out the window because you had a headache. no warning, no real explanation, just a goodbye
it took 4 years to find true friends and the more this summer drags on, the fewer and fewer i realize i have and if you read this and decide to ask me if youre one of them, youre automatically not for being stupid
im leaving for college orientation tonight, and i couldnt be less excited to leave, even though thats why i really want to do, college scares me bc it means leaving people and will bring with it the biggest test of any relationship ive ever had
i did everything i could to make sure i was out of my house now, bc while i should be getting ready to go to my game, the last thing i want to be doing is sitting home by myself thinking about it, but bc of some unfortunate(?) and unexpected changes thats what im stuck doing
and its times like these where you prove to yourself that when you reach out whose gonna grab you so you dont fall
............... how horrible emo, but whatever shit happens
when i had car i was willing to drive everyone everywhere, now that its gone, im not worth the trip
i would have done anything for my coach, but the last thing i thought he would ask of me is not to come back. what happened to the loyalty and 'character' you taught me? it all got shit out the window because you had a headache. no warning, no real explanation, just a goodbye
it took 4 years to find true friends and the more this summer drags on, the fewer and fewer i realize i have and if you read this and decide to ask me if youre one of them, youre automatically not for being stupid
im leaving for college orientation tonight, and i couldnt be less excited to leave, even though thats why i really want to do, college scares me bc it means leaving people and will bring with it the biggest test of any relationship ive ever had
i did everything i could to make sure i was out of my house now, bc while i should be getting ready to go to my game, the last thing i want to be doing is sitting home by myself thinking about it, but bc of some unfortunate(?) and unexpected changes thats what im stuck doing
and its times like these where you prove to yourself that when you reach out whose gonna grab you so you dont fall
............... how horrible emo, but whatever shit happens