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I've had this journal since October 2004. Since then, I have written nearly 500 entries, received over 2,000 comments, and left 3,000 for others. I've bought paid accounts for myself, received them as gifts, and even paid to rename my journal (something that I thought I'd never do). I haven't gone through a lot of "fandoms" or obsessions, but I have written about my life and everything that has spanned throughout these 4+ years. I've met a lot of interesting people through LiveJournal, people who have somehow brought a smile to my face through a comment at ohnotheydidnt, .gif response to a waged comment war, and candid glimpses into each others lives.
I used to be very, very guarded about what information I shared with others; actually, I don't think that's quite right. It was never the content of information that I worried how others would perceive, but the manner in which it was told. I have nothing I am ashamed of and nothing that I keep from the world, but I am selective in who I tell and what I tell. This isn't meant to be confused with deception or "creating" a truth or perception, because it's the exact opposite - I value honesty and integrity, and I do my best to practice them. I just know that, unfortunately, people judge or make inaccurate assumptions. That said, throughout these years, my LiveJournal was witnessed to a lot of crazy-ass screenings and groupings - friends' locked, private, etc. It was just a mess. I felt like the attempt to filter and be selective transformed into a senseless task. Of course, the few LJ friends that I had from the very early beginnings of this journal saw everything; as cliche as it may sound, we were, and still continue to be, from different places in the world, and from completely different backgrounds. Their judgments and opinions were, to me, worthy of sharing every aspect of my life.
With all that said! This complicated form of "filtering" crap that was taking place has now been resolved to being a "cleaned slate." I have marked all of my entries, up to September 2008 or so, as private. Even though I could have deleted these entries, their nostalgic significance meant something to me... after all, they are, literally, the evidence of these past few years. But now, now I have a fresh mark with my journal. I don't want its purpose to change at all, in fact, I want its purpose at this point to only be expanded upon. But combined with the incredible changes that have taken place for me within the past few months, I thought it would be appropriate to (relatively speaking) start anew. :)
Anyway. That's all. I'm going to go waste time at ohnotheydidnt instead of studying for my exam and writing a paper.
I used to be very, very guarded about what information I shared with others; actually, I don't think that's quite right. It was never the content of information that I worried how others would perceive, but the manner in which it was told. I have nothing I am ashamed of and nothing that I keep from the world, but I am selective in who I tell and what I tell. This isn't meant to be confused with deception or "creating" a truth or perception, because it's the exact opposite - I value honesty and integrity, and I do my best to practice them. I just know that, unfortunately, people judge or make inaccurate assumptions. That said, throughout these years, my LiveJournal was witnessed to a lot of crazy-ass screenings and groupings - friends' locked, private, etc. It was just a mess. I felt like the attempt to filter and be selective transformed into a senseless task. Of course, the few LJ friends that I had from the very early beginnings of this journal saw everything; as cliche as it may sound, we were, and still continue to be, from different places in the world, and from completely different backgrounds. Their judgments and opinions were, to me, worthy of sharing every aspect of my life.
With all that said! This complicated form of "filtering" crap that was taking place has now been resolved to being a "cleaned slate." I have marked all of my entries, up to September 2008 or so, as private. Even though I could have deleted these entries, their nostalgic significance meant something to me... after all, they are, literally, the evidence of these past few years. But now, now I have a fresh mark with my journal. I don't want its purpose to change at all, in fact, I want its purpose at this point to only be expanded upon. But combined with the incredible changes that have taken place for me within the past few months, I thought it would be appropriate to (relatively speaking) start anew. :)
Anyway. That's all. I'm going to go waste time at ohnotheydidnt instead of studying for my exam and writing a paper.