I don't know what to do
Well it doesn't happen often but for once I just don't have the answer to a few questions that are floating around in my head. Seems like the past month of my life has been an emotional rollercoaster, and I'm ready for the ride to stop. I just don't know when or where I want to get off, and every day things just get more confusing. I'm not used to this, for all my life I've known what I want and was willing to expend the effort to try and get it. This time I don't know what I want, and even if i did, i'm not sure I want to work at getting it. This sucks, because that's not who I am. I've always been a firm believer that nothing good comes without effort. I guess I'm just wondering if what I might want is worth the effort or if its time for me to admit failure. Again, this is something I never pictured myself doing, but I don't know.
I know that trying to make someone feel something never works in the end, and I'm also the type of person to let people live their own lives and let them find things out for themselves. Its just that some people I care about and I feel like I really need to make them see something, even though I want them to see it for themselves, but I can't bear to see someone I care about hurt, or making a mistake. So I try to make my point, hating what I'm doing all the while because I value free will, but I just can't get my point across because I'm holding back out of respect for that person's freedom of choice. I hate hurting people that I care about, and maybe I'm wrong, but if I see something wrong I feel that as their friend I should say something and not give up just because they aren't listening, otherwise I feel like i'm failing them.
Anyway, thats my rant for the day. I'm in the middle of 9 straight days of working but I guess I did sign on the dotted line.
I know that trying to make someone feel something never works in the end, and I'm also the type of person to let people live their own lives and let them find things out for themselves. Its just that some people I care about and I feel like I really need to make them see something, even though I want them to see it for themselves, but I can't bear to see someone I care about hurt, or making a mistake. So I try to make my point, hating what I'm doing all the while because I value free will, but I just can't get my point across because I'm holding back out of respect for that person's freedom of choice. I hate hurting people that I care about, and maybe I'm wrong, but if I see something wrong I feel that as their friend I should say something and not give up just because they aren't listening, otherwise I feel like i'm failing them.
Anyway, thats my rant for the day. I'm in the middle of 9 straight days of working but I guess I did sign on the dotted line.