How does it all end?..........

[bone_raven]

My past couple of weeks have been interesting ones. My mind is being bombarded by so many different things yet I've been able to hold it together. Its definitely an odd feeling. Like I've become something different, I'm able to process so much lately except I can't think straight the same time. Yesterday my mind was so out of it I forgot what day it was, what the time was, hell what had even happened that night. I wish I was able to fix the problems plaguing those closest to me but, I guess all I can do is be there and hold them up. There really aren't to many problems in my own life, well except my inability to settle on a major. And the fact I REALLY need a job or at least a source of income. I really wanna start escaping it all again. Start doing roleplayers and watching insane amounts of anime. But, that'd be running away I guess. Thats all I ever did in middle school..... was run away. I ran to a place full of hatred. I played a role player geared to piss me off with a person who just wanted to control my life. The thing is I'm angry or sad now I'm just lost I guess. I don't no what to do anymore. I've carried them out of the desert and in to a forest.
I wish I had the drive to write stories and paint my warhammer models but, I dont. Who knows............