Point of life?
Within the last few days, I've had the recurrent thought of not seeing the point of life. Everything, and I mean everything, just seems utterly pointless to me anymore. Schoolwork, the computer, eating, sleeping, talking, every single thing... Its not like I've never thought this before, quite the contrary. But I've never had it to this extent and for days on end. I haven't been witting in my journal the last month or so other than those pathetic stereotypical completely meaningless test I posted. I think I'll delete those...
Maybe I'm becoming a nihilist? Sometimes I wish I could just die, and end all of this misery in this world. Granted, I would not end the misery in the world, but at least I wouldn't know it exist since I'm dead and therefor can't think. But if such things as the afterlife exist after death, then I would know it exist and not be able to do anything and then be even more distressed. But then that would mean I would have to believe in some sort of religion, and I don't even know if I do. Come to think of it, I don't even believe I know anything at all anymore. Ah, thoughts of myself going crazy, or would that be crazier? Or does crazy even exist other than in the minds of the human who thinks it? Or do we even think? Overthink Overthink Overthink OVERKILL OVERKILL OVERKILL. *has the sudden urge to scream/cry/die*
Maybe I'm becoming a nihilist? Sometimes I wish I could just die, and end all of this misery in this world. Granted, I would not end the misery in the world, but at least I wouldn't know it exist since I'm dead and therefor can't think. But if such things as the afterlife exist after death, then I would know it exist and not be able to do anything and then be even more distressed. But then that would mean I would have to believe in some sort of religion, and I don't even know if I do. Come to think of it, I don't even believe I know anything at all anymore. Ah, thoughts of myself going crazy, or would that be crazier? Or does crazy even exist other than in the minds of the human who thinks it? Or do we even think? Overthink Overthink Overthink OVERKILL OVERKILL OVERKILL. *has the sudden urge to scream/cry/die*