the christmas chi-la-la and 'chad the dad'
so i will start on last wed the night before thanksgivin'. well this was the 1st thanksgiving i had with my lil brother. i went to pick him up after work. the drive was soo long every one was on the road. i couldnt wait to see him! he is soo beautiful, i love him. ok, so yeah i picked him up and then we went over to my aunts house on our fathers
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I'm really sorry you have to deal with this. I have been dealing with it my whole life too... If you ask my dad, I'm a stupid bitch who will never be anything. He always encouraged me to drop out of college because he said I was "wasting my time". Why on earth would he say something like that? The hardest part is watching him do the same thing to my 21 year old brother, only he's succeeding in turning him into an alcoholic at the same time, by encouraging him to drink with him... And my brother wants so badly to bond with my dad, he always does what my dad wants, and drinks with him.
Well, there's much much more, as I'm sure you can guess, but all I can do is say that I'm sorry you have to deal with such a childish parent... And the hardest thing that Iever ever had to do is realize that my father will NEVER be a father to me.
I remember the day clearly when I gave up on my father. I don't mean that I quit loving him, or that he quit being family... I just mean that I let go of that lingering hope that someday he might be supportive or caring, like a parent. He's an overgrown child with serious emotional and mental problems, with a drinking problem on top of it all... He will never be right, he will never change, he will never be a REAL father (whatever that means). And I have to accept him for the fucked up person that he is... I dont' have to like it.. But I can't wish that he'll be different, because he won't. But I have to say, moving 1400 miles away made it so much easier!! Too bad you don't have that luxery.
Anyway, I'm babbling, but I wanted you to know that you're not alone, and keep hangin in there sista! You're doing great!!
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