work hours? sleep hours? why do they not like each other?
I love my job, I really do. But it's getting to be very hard for me. Not the actual job. But the fact I get off work at 3am. I've been really good and still going to bed by 6am (which is like a person getting off at 5 and going to bed at 8)... but I still don't get up until 2pm. And that's if I actually fall asleep at 6. By the time I've showered and eaten breakfast, it's 3pm and thus there's very little time left to do... anything. Everyone wants to make me feel bad about somehow being "irresponsible" and "sleeping in" till 2. But the fact of the matter is, if I got up earlier, I'd be sleep deprived. And no one comes straight home from work and goes straight to bed. It's not like I could go to bed two hours earlier. I have to eat dinner, unwind, relax. I'm just getting really tired of living this life "out of the box" so to speak. I miss sunlight. I miss taking dolly pictures without longggg afternoon shadows. I miss... being normal. I was never a night owl. For a while I was just to avoid my parents. But now that I don't have to, I wish that I could get up in the morning. But even if I quit and found a day job, Jim would probably still work nights (same hours as I do now). So when would I see him? So, maybe I'll just go back to the splitting headaches that were sleep deprivation and red bull, so I can actually feel accomplished during the day...