How the minutes drag by...
Waiting here now for the man from the insurance company that handles the cremation and connected stuff.
Time feels weird, sometimes I look at the clock and notice it's only a few minutes ago, and sometimes I find myself an hour later.
I hope my mother is okay, she keeps saying that it's okay for her to be alone for awhile now, e.g. tonight, so I can go back to Utrecht to arrange my stuff get, get more clothes, go tonights aikido training, but I'm not sure I'm doing the right thing here, for myself or for her.
One of my aunts, her sister, has offered to stay the night here, if my mother wants that. I still think maybe I should stay, but me flipping out because I haven't relaxed for a few days in succession won't help either.
I think I'll go to Utrecht, train, arrange my stuff there, do aikido training together with alexilian (that's P., we were together at bicon) and get back to Deventer tomorrow morning early.
And then there's next weekend. I have had a meeting set up with a dear lady friend of mine to spend time together Saturday and go to a Tindersticks concert Sunday. I already talked to her, and it's okay for her to still meet up. I need to get some distraction or else I'm going to go flip out.
--- *duh* who made the smiley for 'weird' smile, I need another one
Time feels weird, sometimes I look at the clock and notice it's only a few minutes ago, and sometimes I find myself an hour later.
I hope my mother is okay, she keeps saying that it's okay for her to be alone for awhile now, e.g. tonight, so I can go back to Utrecht to arrange my stuff get, get more clothes, go tonights aikido training, but I'm not sure I'm doing the right thing here, for myself or for her.
One of my aunts, her sister, has offered to stay the night here, if my mother wants that. I still think maybe I should stay, but me flipping out because I haven't relaxed for a few days in succession won't help either.
I think I'll go to Utrecht, train, arrange my stuff there, do aikido training together with alexilian (that's P., we were together at bicon) and get back to Deventer tomorrow morning early.
And then there's next weekend. I have had a meeting set up with a dear lady friend of mine to spend time together Saturday and go to a Tindersticks concert Sunday. I already talked to her, and it's okay for her to still meet up. I need to get some distraction or else I'm going to go flip out.
--- *duh* who made the smiley for 'weird' smile, I need another one