I don't know what to say!!!!!
I don't know what to say, but yet I find myself here in front of the computer! I guess that is because I'm really depressed and don't quite know what to do with myself! The last week I've just been constantly stoned to deal with all the lovely happenings in my life. Today I chose to stay sober and am doing...not so well! I ditched work today, avoided calls from creditors, didn't get out of bed until 7:30pm and here I am! Sitting in front of a computer at the internet cafe on davie. I don't know what the fuck I'm to do after this because I can't sit here all night, nor can I afford it. I need a fuckin' vacation from my life. I just wish that there was one thing in my life to make me happy right now. I swore I'd never date again and then did and well we all know how well that has gone, my favorite person in the whole world died, my dad took it all out on me and told me that I'm an immature, ignorant, selfish, little bitch! I'm stupid, useless, and I'm an embarrassment of a daughter. (amongst other things that went on for 2 hours)then my favorite uncle died 3 days after my nana, then had to pay a few hundred bux to fly up for the funeral hoping to come back to someone to hold me and be there for me like she said but, here I am. Stuck dealing with everything by myself as usual except this time it's a bit too much for me to deal with on my own.