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[bondage_me_up]

so i had this weird nightmare/prophetic dream that i was at the last Os Catalepticos show in hollyweird at teh knitting factory, and i walked past(right in front of her) anabel and we looked at each other and she turned away and so did i....what was weird was that i was kinda happy to see her but not really i felt some tension and i got shy and nervous like i did when i was around her.
so anyways when she looked at me she kinda gave me a HI smile and turned away to hug somebody.
well when i woke up i felt kinda sad and i didnt want that to happend.
but damages done, i acted kinda immature but oh well hows one suppose to react when they have a broken heart and felt like they lost the one that made them warm and fuzzy inside???

but yeah i wish i had still anabel as friend, i was a fool to fall for her, sad thing is i never knew if she even like-like me, i was always too shy and nervous to ask her, i should of just have been her friend and nothing else but shit happend....

but thats in the past and it shall stay in the past i have far too mush pride to go back and try to "patch things up" i wonder thou....how is she doing? sometimes i think that when im around her area.

i know that i dont have those feeling no mores, i guess i want us to be friends...orproly not im just rambling on and on.....