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[bonafidethrift]

I'm imagining things seeing things nothing's right here I'm slowly losing my mind but i'm really trying because you know it wouldn't be all such a good idea to not try after all but after all that fucking after all that insanity after all that hell i just managed to put not only myself but the sakes of others through or rather what they put me through but what i went along with because i was brainwashed and now the scent of mankind lingers upon my breath and it chokes me it threatens to kill me as it closes in upon my very heart and mind and i cannot and i will not give in but you must understand

it's so hard

i am here

for all reasons

i am here

for whatever reason

i am still here

and they cannot change that

they could kill me for all i care

and i would
still be here

i wish i wasn't here