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It took about 4 years, but I finally sent his yesterday to someone that has been on my AIM list for too long:
[14:36] ME: Hey Jade. This is Bonnie. I know it has been years, but I am trying to make amends with things in my past. And I apologize for everything that happened THAT long ago. I'm not angry anymore, and I had no right to be angry with you, because it wasn't you. And I don't know why your screen name is still on my buddy list, so I thought I would say that and remove you. LOL
[14:49] **Jade: Thank you for writing me. I feel the same way. I am glad that you understand that I really never did anything. I have cared about Bobak as a friend for many many years and never understood how I got involved in all of the drama. I hope the new year brings you peace and happiness.
[15:03] ME: Same to you. ^.^
My way of coping with things that hurt me or anger me is to talk about it. And when it comes time, I will admit things and apologize. This was way overdue, and I felt the need to do it yesterday because it hit me how similar this situation was to that one.
Billy says that I can't forgive and forget. I can forgive, I admit it is hard to forget. But when I "forget," I can't forget that the situation happened, but I have forgotten that anger and pain I felt every time I thought about it. I haven't had those feelings in years. Even though she was one small piece in a larger puzzle, she was involved in one way or another, ultimately, it wasn't her fault.
I have those pains and angers when I think of my current situation, and it takes time for me to move past it. I mean, it won't take me 4 years, but it takes more than just a month.
[14:36] ME: Hey Jade. This is Bonnie. I know it has been years, but I am trying to make amends with things in my past. And I apologize for everything that happened THAT long ago. I'm not angry anymore, and I had no right to be angry with you, because it wasn't you. And I don't know why your screen name is still on my buddy list, so I thought I would say that and remove you. LOL
[14:49] **Jade: Thank you for writing me. I feel the same way. I am glad that you understand that I really never did anything. I have cared about Bobak as a friend for many many years and never understood how I got involved in all of the drama. I hope the new year brings you peace and happiness.
[15:03] ME: Same to you. ^.^
My way of coping with things that hurt me or anger me is to talk about it. And when it comes time, I will admit things and apologize. This was way overdue, and I felt the need to do it yesterday because it hit me how similar this situation was to that one.
Billy says that I can't forgive and forget. I can forgive, I admit it is hard to forget. But when I "forget," I can't forget that the situation happened, but I have forgotten that anger and pain I felt every time I thought about it. I haven't had those feelings in years. Even though she was one small piece in a larger puzzle, she was involved in one way or another, ultimately, it wasn't her fault.
I have those pains and angers when I think of my current situation, and it takes time for me to move past it. I mean, it won't take me 4 years, but it takes more than just a month.